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wow, definitely strange to hear :joy:

it definitely sounds like your orientation is not exactly what you're struggling with - you said it yourself! "I think again I'm just scared of abandoning my past self and what I used to like and be comfortable with." one of the people i watch on Youtube is Michael Buckley, he's a life coach now and what you said here reminds me of a video that he put up recently. in this he's talking about having given up drinking, but what he says starting at 4:22 relates to this https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=id=melgr-NXHQg;m=4;s=22 and then at 5:55 he says something really great that he thought to himself: "stop acting and thinking and talking like you know exactly how you feel about everything and just notice and pay attention and be open to the idea that you were wrong about yourself." your life changes, you're not the same person as your past self, so why should you pretend to be? and like he says in the video, you don't have to radically change your identity instantly. you can just be open to the idea that maybe you like girls as well or maybe you prefer girls, at least at this point in your life. i know it's harmful to think about orientations as being "phases" because that is typically used to invalidate people's orientations, but you also don't have to be tied to one identity your entire life. it can be true now and not true later and there's nothing wrong with that, same with how you have felt about boys before. maybe start to warm up to the idea and then take small steps toward finding out if being with girls is something you do enjoy or not. especially since the environment you're in right now is supportive of that, you should definitely take advantage! what purpose does it serve you to hold onto the person you used to be? ask yourself that and i think you'll find that it doesn't serve you at all. of course... easier said than done, i know. :P i struggle with this concept, too, especially because i'm very conscious of how i present myself/my personality to other people. think of it as a process. it's not easy, but it is possible, you just have to keep working at it. set small goals for yourself and don't get discouraged if you don't reach the goal as quickly as you want. take a deep breath and persevere.

In no particular order for request, just that this is my top ten [emoji12] A Message In My Place No More Keeping My Feet On The Ground Glass Of Water Up With The Birds White Shadows Warning Sign Ghost Story Moving to Mars U.F.O.

yep, i put the video together over the past couple of days to celebrate this week, the 21st anniversary of Chris and Jonny meeting and changing all of our lives forever :D i love those moments, too... it's almost like Jonny trying to speak Chris's language, hehehehehe

this is the video that i pulled it from :)

guys, it's the first week of september, you know what that means

though heavily we bled, still on we crawl

@marcode those are all incredible!!

in both, yeah i love those butterflies :heart_eyes:

no because then i get upset there aren't studio versions of the songs :joy:

i think everyone forgets about LRLRL :P:joy:

it's not even on LRLRL either smh

now here i lie on my own in a separate sky...

happy birthday to my tied-for-second favorite album :p:heart_eyes::heart:

dear Coldplay, please play Twisted Logic live for real :sob::sob::sob::sob:

that song always pulls at my heartstrings, even if i tend to forget about it a lot :uhoh:

but i made it just in time for the break :joy:

ah man i missed so many good songs o_O

welcome to the forums, tom! i'm brooke :D

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Unless Coldplay can somehow fight the very nature of THEMSELVES and create and release an album in like six months (the time between KEP being ANNOUNCED and actually released btw) then I think the answer is a definite no [emoji13]

Sorry you missed out on that but thanks for sharing so the rest of us know! In MX era I told the roadie who upgraded me and my sister that I knew what he was doing but I guess I should not do that in the future [emoji12]

that's so awesome! congratulations and glad we could help you out! :D

this has been a blast once again, friends

oh and i run here it comes