Technicolor Sparks

What Makes You Beautiful - One Direction Usually I wouldn't be able to stand this type of music/band, but for some reason I really love this song. I guess it makes me feel confident? :shame:

Today at dinner he didn't even talk to me!!!! :dance:

Nope, you definitely read it right! He keeps downloading all of my favourite movies or movies that I have mentioned that I want to see, and then says "Hey, Emily, I downloaded ____, if you want to watch it in my room sometime. I have class at ___ so you can come and watch when I'm not there". And he asked me if I would drive him around the city/teach him how to drive if he were to rent a car. :blank:

Like Crazy One Day The Woman in Black

^ Did you enjoy the novel itself though? I love Catcher in the Rye <3 I'm reading One Day by David Nicholls right now. I haven't seen the movie yet, I wanted to read the book first!

I can say it but you won't believe me You say you do but you don't deceive me It's hard to know they're out there It's hard to know that you still care I can say it but you won't believe me You say you do but you don't deceive me Dead hearts are everywhere Dead hearts are everywhere

1C (windchill -5C), and sunny. It feels more like March than November!

Still a-stalkin! He keeps downloading movies and then asks if I want to watch it in his room while he is in class. And I'm like "uhhh nooo?"

Maybe there is something there?

I've been single for my whole entire 19 years of life. Pretty pathetic.

An old crush (though it was way beyond that) accepted my friend request on facebook within six seconds of me sending the request.

Honestly, I don't know why I am still in love with you, 3 years later.

Rainy and cool. It better actually snow, otherwise I came back to school a day early for nothing!

Hahahahaha oh my god! :lol:

Yeah, I have the phone number for campus security and residence security. So I can call if something were to happen. I'm so sad, I was supposed to go home this weekend but now i can't. So I'm stuck here. At least james will be happy. :cry:

Well I WAS happy because I was planning on going home for the weekend, but now there is supposed to be a storm so my parents don't want me to come. So I guess nothing.

I don't know who to talk to. :( My RA's job is to settle conflicts by talking to both parties at once, and I really don't want him to know that I told anyone. Anyway my RA is more interested in being friends with us than actually settling disputes. I could talk to the Residence office, but I feel like they won't take me seriously unless something actually happens. But I don't want to wait until something happens, because it is hard to know what he is capable of/willing to do...

At lunch today, I was talking to a friend and he warned me to stay faarrr away from James. I already knew that everyone in my "group" knew about James' obsession with me, but I guess that they are all really...not afraid...but I guess wary of him. They think that he is on the fence between a genius and a psychopath. So now I'm really worried! People keep telling me that they are afraid to upset him because they don't know what he would do. James is always talking about other people and how he blackmails them. For example, yesterday he took a semi- nude video of another guy in his room (don't even ask, I have no idea why they did this). He showed it to everyone at supper yesterday and said "Now if he crosses me, this is going viral. It will ruin him". He had a really unnverving tone of voice, and the look on his face was really chilling. Fuck, I'm getting really scared of this guy. I don't know what to do!

^ Winnipeg, haha. It sounds like it's all second-hand info, but it just sounds that way because I am not using names (since you guys won't know who they are anyway :P). The friend who is telling me most of this is James' friend. He is planning on buying her a small gift too, but not a car lol. I told him not to get me a Remembrance Day gift because, not only do I not want it, but it's extremely disrespectful to give gifts on Remembrance Day! But he just said "Oh, well it's more of a "thanks for being a good neighbour and good friend" gift". He just doesn't take no for an answer!

When I moved to a new university, I was hoping that I could kind of create a new "me", and be more outgoing and make more friends. I've made a few friends, but other than that everything is just like it was before.

Nice costume, Emma!

This is quickly becoming my favourite song on the album. I've had it on repeat all day. It's just so simple and gorgeous.

Haha I know! Honestly, what am I going to do if he actually buys me one? I can't accept that, especially from someone who is clearly doing it so that I will love him back. Which is NEVER going to happen, so then I would be just using him.

I'm feeling ugly. :(

I'm starting to think that I will never be attractive to anyone but creeps.