don't be silly i'm not 'putting up' with you, i'm genuinely sorry this has happened to you and you know where i am if for whatever you want.

I know and thanks for that..i know im a joker and everything but i really cosider u a great friend ali, i mean it... sorry i cant make u laught with my stupid jokes this time ..im in a weird mood..and i hate myself sooo much when im down...i better keep talking about travis coz i dont want to sound more pathetic

true that, i wish i had a brother or sister to talk ..it sux being only child sometimes

i don't expect you to be the joker all the time, and you don't have to. everyone has differents sides to themselves, but we're still us. life happens i'm afraid but the best we can do is all we should expect of ourselves.

Ren! :D

I know, but life is so damn unfair sometimes, and the irony is that my granny passed away exactly 1 year ago..and im feeling almost the same i felt that day....well that doesnt matter, im just so attached to some friends and my family that i feel like part of me just died...its stupid i know

Ren! :D

Allo julia, how is it going? havent seen ya in ages!

ren i'm really sorry but i'm gonna have to go. i don't want to leave you here when you're hurting, but it's 3am, i really need to sleep. i feel really guilty! but pm me or come on again tomorrow :) i hope that you find some peace :kiss:

Allo julia' date=' how is it going? havent seen ya in ages![/quote']

 

Ooh, I just kinda realised I was interupted a personal moment...sorry. :confused: But uhm, I'm not going very well cos I sprained my ankle a couple days ago and I still can't walk properly so I have to stay at home. :bigcry: . I'm missing out on heaps of sport too. :( I just want to get better! But uhm..other that that yeah everything is going good! It's my formal next week i'm so excited!! :D:D

How are you?? :)

Sure, sweet dreams, and thxs for listen to my stupid problems..this wont happen again i swear... i just didnt know what to do.. take good care ali

ren, it's really not a problem sweetie. any time :) . it's not stupid to feel.

Allo julia' date=' how is it going? havent seen ya in ages![/quote']

 

Ooh, I just kinda realised I was interupted a personal moment...sorry. :confused: But uhm, I'm not going very well cos I sprained my ankle a couple days ago and I still can't walk properly so I have to stay at home. :bigcry: . I'm missing out on heaps of sport too. :( I just want to get better! But uhm..other that that yeah everything is going good! It's my formal next week i'm so excited!! :D:D

How are you?? :)

aw, i hope u get better Julia,spring is coming so u need to get better soon :cool:

Im really down coz i just lost someone really close to me last nite...im not used to be so freaking down ...so my best bet was vent here..pathetic eh? Good old joker ren would kick my ass for posting haha

ren' date=' it's really not a problem sweetie. any time :) . it's not stupid to feel.[/quote']

Thx again , and sorry for making u stay up for so long, i'll make it up to u with a cover of one of ur fav songs,promise :P

Spring is already here!! Ohh, what happened?? Who did you lose? You're not pathetic...like, I've seen people make threads in here because..they lost their shoe! Well, maybe not lose their shoe but you get what I mean. If you have lost someone you are allowed to vent. And you're allowed to be down. You know what I do when I'm down? I just surround myself with friends..that really helps me. And you still are joker Ren, don't worry! :)

^ That was so sweet, no wonder u are one of my best friend here AND a VIM ... and well, i lost a good friend , we were like brothers since i dont have any, i knew him for over 20 years..life is so unfair.. i just dont know how to feel, and i'd do what u do when u are down but i dont really show my feelings to my friends ,i could be falling apart from the inside and still smile...its bad for me but i dont really care :/

back to my monologue, ..hmm what travis song should i listen now?turn is always a cheer up...what? im afraid Joker ren will hate me for being so lame .. :(

Ohh I'm really sorry to hear that Ren...really I am.

Well..I guess people handle tragedies different ways and I know it's cliche but holding it in doesn't help. I know you don't like talking about you're feelings but..how can people help you out if they don't even know you're upset? You don't need to pour your heart out to people, but at times like these you really do need someone there...even if it's just their presense. After all, it's times like these when people need their friends and love ones the most. And if you don't want to talk to people, maybe the best thing is to keep yourself busy and just do things you love doing...at least it can take your mind off the shitty things in life.

:) :kiss: :)

Its raining again gah!..i need sunshine

Ohh I'm really sorry to hear that Ren...really I am.

Well..I guess people handle tragedies different ways and I know it's cliche but holding it in doesn't help. I know you don't like talking about you're feelings but..how can people help you out if they don't even know you're upset? You don't need to pour your heart out to people, but at times like these you really do need someone there...even if it's just their presense. After all, it's times like these when people need their friends and love ones the most. And if you don't want to talk to people, maybe the best thing is to keep yourself busy and just do things you love doing...at least it can take your mind off the shitty things in life.

:) :kiss: :)

That's so true, thank you for remind me that Julia... u see, i always try not to be sad but i cant help it this time..and u are so right,i should play my guitar or something just to keep my mind busy..posting here was good too but i never find thom, noni or you online anymore, its so sad :( anyway, i might be taking off really soon, but i wanted to thx u for ur kind words.. and sorry for this, i didnt mean to bug ya with this ... hope to see ya soon :P

And sorry to everyone for screwing this thread with my problems..i wont happen again , promise

You didn't bug anyone Ren. Everyone loves you on this board and would be more than happy to help you out!

And that goes for me as well. :)

Have a good sleep...I hope you feel better soon. :kiss:

Ok, that's it im off, forget the last 2 pages and post travis stuff my maniacs..

 

Cheers

You didn't bug anyone Ren. Everyone loves you on this board and would be more than happy to help you out!

And that goes for me as well.

Have a good sleep...I hope you feel better soon.

Nighty or g'day hun :kiss: sweet legolas dreams ( like the old times, remember? )

 

-off-

Ok, that's it im off, forget the last 2 pages and post travis stuff my maniacs..

 

Cheers

 

There's no need to forget anything or forgive you. You're more than welcome to post about whatever in here, specially if you have a bad day.

I'm sorry to not being here when you posted this, but it was 4 am here and I was out. I'd like being here and dance with my flamenco dress to cheer you up.

And you know we're always here if you need us. Your sister is just a pm away, so don't hesitate to do it.

 

*sends the biggest hug to Ren*

aww noni thank you, u know i've been trying to bring the good old joker me again but it isnt working..it worked for a while but not anymore..i should stop playing around... like fran said once " if u are feeling down , dont pretend to be happy ,cry ..its better that way" or something like that.. and its true.. maybe it was a mistake coming back and pretent everything was just fine.... but thx a lot for ur support

*big hugs back to noni

wow.. i haven't been here in awhile.. aww i feel like i'm home.. good ol' travis thread.. my love for you will never die :kiss:

:P

Good to have u back mandy, i was this close to start talking to myself again