haha well I'm still not sure about that....you know I got the impression he wants a really beautiful lady by his side which I am not....and uhm well that's such a stupid superficial thought because on the other hand I think that's a bunch of bullshit...but ahhhh guys confuse me soooo much.....they are always talking about beautiful ladies but in the end they only want someone who understands them and all that stuff....

 

you know this is random now...but I talked about this with a male friend of mine...he is also one of those guys who likes to talk about beautiful ladies you know....which makes him appear to be a bit superficial...but he most definitely isn't!He said the most important thing is honesty, trust and all that stuff....

 

but I think guys are just like that....or girls are the same but I don#t realise that because I am a girl myself...

 

 

 

 

arrrgggghhhh if I didn't have those damn doubts about my look I'd probably think different about all this....:dozey:

 

 

buuut don't get me wrong now...he's not a superficial person but I think he wouldn't go out with a girl like me...:confused:

How could anybody not think your beautiful Jules?

half of the things I wrote there were senseless....

 

 

 

damn it I hate my confused mind...:bigcry:

 

 

I'll always be the one who definitely wouldn't do the first step and the one who doesn't get signs by some guy because I think far too bad about myself...

you need to be more self confident... (I don't know if that's the right word but you know what I mean)... you're a great girl and I'm sure that he knows it :kiss:

How could anybody not think your beautiful Jules?

 

I can't even answer your question....I always thought I'm not beautiful and that I don't deserve someone because I'm not beautiful....I changed my mind a LOT through the years but there is still a little tiny bit left in my mind that bothers me...

you need to be more self confident... (I don't know if that's the right word but you know what I mean)... you're a great girl and I'm sure that he knows it :kiss:

 

Thanks Lore...:kiss:

 

 

you know I even got a whole bunch more self-confident....before I moved out it was different...but like I said before there is still something left that bothers me and that I don't get rid of...

ah wait, there is another thing I want to get rid of:

 

 

I think many people only see me as a big joke (not really in a negative way...)...you know I'm someone to joke with and you can make many jokes about me and laugh about me and I'm not angry about this..(because I know those people like me and don't mean it serious....)....and well he is one of those special persons where I get the impression that he takes me seriously...not someone who always jokes about me and laughs about me and all that stuff.....I got the impression that he understands me....and HA I felt SO good when he told me (I said that before in this thread...) that I act more adult than other 20 years old women and that he likes that....and that he even finds a friend of mine more strenuous than me ( a friend who likes to laugh about me....)and she is 22....yes two years are not much but uhm well....but what I want to say is that I think he gets how I really am....that I am not only this funny person you can joke with...

 

 

SO:

 

I THINK GUYS ARE MORE COMPLICATED THAN WOMEN!

 

(or I am....mwha....)

 

:wacky:

I think guys and women just speak totally different languages and sometimes in relationships it gets hard to understand each other ... I'm not very experienced in relationships, the two I've had have been pretty stupid (well actually the second one was good in the beginning but that's a whole different story) but anyway, I think you should probably just take it slow and be yourself with him. and don't be so hard on yourself !!!! you're beautiful inside and out.

you need to give him a lie detector test :mellow:

Awww julia, you're so very beautiful in my books so chin up girl :kiss:

 

 

 

 

And if things dont work out with that guy, you know where to find me raaawr! :wink3:

 

Thanks Anna you are so right, I know I shouldn't be that hard to myself...I can't tell you how many people have told me in the past month what a great person I am...and some male friends told me that they just can't understand it that I haven't had a boyfriend yet...:bigcry:

 

 

 

Oooh Renny....let me guess where I can find you?

Backstage

 

 

haah there is a random thing that comes to my mind now...some minutes ago I was packing my suitcase to go back to Bonn tomorrow...my mum said that it looks as if I wanted to go to another country and my sister said "haha yeah to a Peru or something like that!"...erm yes..:wacky:

aw :blush: you know what another great place to go would be? :wacky:

yes yes I know I know....but can't remembe rit correctly...:wacko:

so what happened? Is he your boyfriend now or is it still with confusion?

^yeah I wonder too :surpried:

 

 

haah there is a random thing that comes to my mind now...some minutes ago I was packing my suitcase to go back to Bonn tomorrow...my mum said that it looks as if I wanted to go to another country and my sister said "haha yeah to a Peru or something like that!"...erm yes..:wacky:

 

haha why Peru?

Peru? I want to go to Italy :D or wait wait wait.... ITALY! :wideeyed:

yes yes I know I know....but can't remembe rit correctly...:wacko:

 

:wacky: here:

 

no, here actually :wacko: :

 

if you go to Perú

 

 

you can take a plane and come to Chile :wink3:

no, here actually :wacko: :

 

 

mine is closer to germany :wacky:

mine is where I live :wacko:

so what happened? Is he your boyfriend now or is it still with confusion?

 

Noooo haha how lucky I'd be if he was my boyfriend...he's my friend:nice:

 

 

but screw it...this morning I so wished he was...we had to go to a museum at 8am with one of our courses...so first we met at the train station to go there together...so when we arrived there there was nobody of our course because we were quite early...so there were some sofas in the hall of the museum...we were sitting there he gave me one of his headphones and then we were just sitting there listening to Arcade Fire first and then some electronic stuff....we both closed our eyes relaxed because we were so tired....ah damn it would have been so nice if he was my boyfriend...I could have laid my head on his shoulder and all that stuff.....awwwwwwwww....aaaand he made me realise how nice it is just to listen to music with someone else and not alone...wow listening to music together can be so great...I never did that before because my friends don't listen to the same music like me...they always say I should turn it off....:blush:

 

mwha I'll take a plane to Sweden, Chile, Peru and America and then we can have a party together....seriously I think if the 5 of us had a party together it would be a damn funny night...:dance:

oh that sounds cosy, jules. :nice:

I really don't know why, but somehow I got a picture in my head where you two sit in this cosy sofa with lots of pillows and the sofa is in the center of a big square (or market, I dunno which word's right) and there are all these stressed people running/walking around you and Mr R, but you two are just sitting there happy and relaxed listening to music and the sun is shining on you. I don't know if you know what I mean, but in this movie (don't remeber the name) the world is stressed and moving fast but for the the main charactar, the time stands still. That's how I saw you and Mr R haha and the picture in my head breaths loooove :blush :

 

very random :wacko:

 

 

haha yeah I agree :lol: I think our party would the funniest party ever lol we would not be able to walk straight the day after because we had been laughing so hard muhaha we would have pillow wars and food wars and eric would go crazy because there would be only girls except for him :wacky:

oh that sounds cosy, jules. :nice:

I really don't know why, but somehow I got a picture in my head where you two sit in this cosy sofa with lots of pillows and the sofa is in the center of a big square (or market, I dunno which word's right) and there are all these stressed people running/walking around you and Mr R, but you two are just sitting there happy and relaxed listening to music and the sun is shining on you. I don't know if you know what I mean, but in this movie (don't remeber the name) the world is stressed and moving fast but for the the main charactar, the time stands still. That's how I saw you and Mr R haha and the picture in my head breaths loooove :blush :

 

very random :wacko:

 

 

haha yeah I agree :lol: I think our party would the funniest party ever lol we would not be able to walk straight the day after because we had been laughing so hard muhaha we would have pillow wars and food wars and eric would go crazy because there would be only girls except for him :wacky:

 

OMG Sofia.....what you've described there almost brought tears to my eyes...because somehow it felt like that (ok there were not many stressed people and the sofa was not in the middle of the hall...but anyways...)...it felt so good....I mean I like the fact that he just gave me his headphone and he knew that I'd like it....we can just sit there without saying something and just listen to music....that's the best thing...I'm not somebody who always wants to talk...the thing is that he knows that if he listens to music when he is with me that it isn't rude then...because I do the same...fact: we are both listening to music all day long haha....and we don't complain if we are together that the other one is listening to music...I don't know many people who are like that....this is why I love to be with him...I think he is like me a lot...erm ok I talk too much....:wacky:

 

but awwwww this feeling haha....:blush:

 

 

 

ok erm the party....hahah food wars definitely...and you are so right...it would be such a funny party...but erm you said eric would be the only guy....you are wrong there dear Sofia...What about Ren?:uhoh:

Noooo haha how lucky I'd be if he was my boyfriend...he's my friend:nice:

 

 

but screw it...this morning I so wished he was...we had to go to a museum at 8am with one of our courses...so first we met at the train station to go there together...so when we arrived there there was nobody of our course because we were quite early...so there were some sofas in the hall of the museum...we were sitting there he gave me one of his headphones and then we were just sitting there listening to Arcade Fire first and then some electronic stuff....we both closed our eyes relaxed because we were so tired....ah damn it would have been so nice if he was my boyfriend...I could have laid my head on his shoulder and all that stuff.....awwwwwwwww....aaaand he made me realise how nice it is just to listen to music with someone else and not alone...wow listening to music together can be so great...I never did that before because my friends don't listen to the same music like me...they always say I should turn it off....:blush:

 

well he might be just as shy as you. have you ever thought of this?:\