One thing you will constantly hear teenagers saying: My life is a mess. I'm so stressed out.

I find it helps to let it out, whether people care or not. I like to write it down, on the computer or on paper.

 

First of all, school has been killing me lately. I go to a pretty challenging private school and also take two advanced classes, spanish and math. Besides that I take French after school once a week, play soccer for an hour and a half every day, and play violin. Teachers are so much harder on me this year and though most of my grades are just like they've been my whole life, I feel like I'm letting little things slip and losing easy points on tests and essays. I really want to do well in my Spanish class cause I'm a year ahead and have older kids in my class-- if I get A's I might be able to take an AP course next year. I never have a speck of free time, today was a shocking day because I actually have an hour to do whatever I please right now. My entire day is filled with school, school, soccer, school.

 

Then, soccer itself. We had our first game today and my parents came. I scored a goal (credit goes to my friend though, i just kicked in her shot as it was a little off target). In general I did pretty well I thought, but I know I'm not the best player on my team- I started playing just last year and there are girls who have been playing since they were walking. So my mom and dad spend the entire night talking about what happened, who made what plays, who was good, etc, but not once did they say a SINGLE word about how I did. So after dinner I ask my mom, 'you know, you guys never said anything about me...' and she starts giving me all this crap about how 'Well you know honey... I don't think soccer is your sport because you're more of an individual sport person... you're too analytical, constantly seeing where everyone is, where you should be, where you should pass...but never going for the ball.' I know all of that is true and that I should be more aggressive and that I really shouldn't be complaining right now cause it was just constructive criticism but it made me angry and really really sad just hearing it come out of someone's mouth. Couldn't they have just said "Good effort!! you rocked out there!!" cause I really did try a lot!! It's not like this is going to be my profession!!!

 

And then the boy I like asked out another girl labout two weeks ago! I think he might have done it cause he had liked me for a really long time but lost all hope because he didn't think I liked him at all (we were in a relationship for some time last year which ended absolutely horribly). But now I think he knows I like him and he's sending me these really mixed messages... I have no idea what's going on.

 

Things aren't so bad seperately but when you add them all together they are just pushing down on me like mad. It feels better to let it out now, and my other new stress reliever is running. I found a really nice trail near my house and when I run, everything around me melts away and I all I think about is the road and pushing harder. Especially with music... I just get lost :D

 

Ugh!

 

Well that felt better.

Sounds like you need to start a blog.;)

I feel the need to giggle at above comment.

insert constructive comment here>" umm I don't know how to play soccer?"

insert constructive comment here>" umm I don't know how to play soccer?"

 

:laugh3:

that was extremely random

Sounds like you need to start calm training, also known as beating the shit out of something random (like an old door)

sounds like you have to much going on, which is putting you under pressure. if having an hour to yourself is a rare thing, its not good. you need some chill time

aww, anna :sad:

 

i know exactly how all of that is. as you know, our schools were pretty similar. at least it sounds like you generally like soccer, whereas i hated the volleyball i was forced to do. but there's nothing like that new-england-prep-school stress...just remember that it pays of in places that you least expect it to later in life. it'll make the academics of college a lot better, too.

 

what helped me a lot (and still does) was/is doing things that i REALLY enjoyed in the little amount of downtime i had. i usually put on hilarious movies or stupid coldplay videos that cracked me up, because nothing's better than laughing when you're stressed. just listen to lots of radiohead too, ok? and i'm glad you found something relaxing in running. you've always got to have an outlet.

 

anyway, i hope things get at least a little better soon. it does pay off: my school experience taught me more than i ever knew it did at the time.

 

:D :nice:

One thing you will constantly hear teenagers saying: My life is a mess. I'm so stressed out.

I find it helps to let it out, whether people care or not. I like to write it down, on the computer or on paper.

 

First of all, school has been killing me lately. I go to a pretty challenging private school and also take two advanced classes, spanish and math. Besides that I take French after school once a week, play soccer for an hour and a half every day, and play violin. Teachers are so much harder on me this year and though most of my grades are just like they've been my whole life, I feel like I'm letting little things slip and losing easy points on tests and essays. I really want to do well in my Spanish class cause I'm a year ahead and have older kids in my class-- if I get A's I might be able to take an AP course next year. I never have a speck of free time, today was a shocking day because I actually have an hour to do whatever I please right now. My entire day is filled with school, school, soccer, school.

 

Then, soccer itself. We had our first game today and my parents came. I scored a goal (credit goes to my friend though, i just kicked in her shot as it was a little off target). In general I did pretty well I thought, but I know I'm not the best player on my team- I started playing just last year and there are girls who have been playing since they were walking. So my mom and dad spend the entire night talking about what happened, who made what plays, who was good, etc, but not once did they say a SINGLE word about how I did. So after dinner I ask my mom, 'you know, you guys never said anything about me...' and she starts giving me all this crap about how 'Well you know honey... I don't think soccer is your sport because you're more of an individual sport person... you're too analytical, constantly seeing where everyone is, where you should be, where you should pass...but never going for the ball.' I know all of that is true and that I should be more aggressive and that I really shouldn't be complaining right now cause it was just constructive criticism but it made me angry and really really sad just hearing it come out of someone's mouth. Couldn't they have just said "Good effort!! you rocked out there!!" cause I really did try a lot!! It's not like this is going to be my profession!!!

 

And then the boy I like asked out another girl labout two weeks ago! I think he might have done it cause he had liked me for a really long time but lost all hope because he didn't think I liked him at all (we were in a relationship for some time last year which ended absolutely horribly). But now I think he knows I like him and he's sending me these really mixed messages... I have no idea what's going on.

 

Things aren't so bad seperately but when you add them all together they are just pushing down on me like mad. It feels better to let it out now, and my other new stress reliever is running. I found a really nice trail near my house and when I run, everything around me melts away and I all I think about is the road and pushing harder. Especially with music... I just get lost :D

 

Ugh!

 

Well that felt better.

 

I'm sorry, Anna. I know, school is fuckin' tough. I'm getting gray hairs already from it, and it's awful. I'm sure you are better off than me. :lol: School has just started and even if you slip a 'little bit', just take it with a grain of salt. It's never too late to change things around. Say you get a B on a Spanish test. Look at it this way: It's only something to push you even FURTHER, to make you realize how much you really want to do well. You say that you are used to getting decent grades, so perhaps this is just something to just make you realize 'wow, this is hell. I need to HAUL ASS. (not that you haven't worked hard, but I'm just saying that your more rigorous classes might require something a bit extra that you are not used to)' It's high school work for you, but I believe that you can really pull yourself together. As a matter of fact, I'm sure you are not even deep in a hole to begin with! But just keep working hard and don't let the slipping be something to hold you back, but rather to push you further. Because I know you'll be okay. Just know that all the work you are doing, even though it's so much, will all be worth it.

 

I know how parents can be, being too hard on you and not really giving you credit for anything. Story of my life, really. I've lived with being 'useless' all my life. So don't feel so bad. In the end though, no matter what they say it doesn't matter. As long as you know you are good then that should only keep you going.

 

As for the boy....well, I can't speak much of it, for I have no remote experience with boys and it always ends horribly without even beginning, but that's something that you shouldn't be worried about. If something happens, it happens. But if you still like him and he seemed to show interest, perhaps it's best to just tell him the truth. Whether he'll act on it or whatever, that's out of your hands, but if it calms your conscious to just blurt it out and cut the crap in the middle, then go for it. As I said, I have no right to say this and have never had guys having interest and all that shit, but just my opinion. :P

 

I know life's tough now, but it seems that you have so much other things going for you and to look forward to. Work for those moments, and enjoy life for the sake of them. It's good that you are running, that makes one of us...:lol: Keep doing that, it's healthy and if it calms you down, even better! All in all take everything day by day and just remember that everything happens for a reason.

i need a bti of a rant aswell here we go!

 

subject one - school!

 

i hate it!!! my favourite department (music obviously) has lost all their good teachers...now we have a stupid man and a supply lady who shouts at wee children making them cry...she is such a bitch! :angry: that we kid has cancer aswell :( ...and he did absolutely nothing to anger her..

 

subject two - health

 

my back is so annoying (had a bigggg back operation a whilw back)

..i cant do anything...just walking...which is a bundle of joy :rolleyes:

 

and subject three - life

 

i just hate it right now...alot of you probably cant tell because i hide behind a "jokey" mask :(

cheer me up sumone!!!! :D

i need a bti of a rant aswell here we go!

 

subject one - school!

 

i hate it!!! my favourite department (music obviously) has lost all their good teachers...now we have a stupid man and a supply lady who shouts at wee children making them cry...she is such a bitch! :angry: that we kid has cancer aswell :( ...and he did absolutely nothing to anger her..

 

subject two - health

 

my back is so annoying (had a bigggg back operation a whilw back)

..i cant do anything...just walking...which is a bundle of joy :rolleyes:

 

and subject three - life

 

i just hate it right now...alot of you probably cant tell because i hide behind a "jokey" mask :(

cheer me up sumone!!!! :D

 

I love you. :kiss:

^ aww thanks :D

 

I love you too! :D :kiss:

YAY! :D

Coldplaying rants are the best. Its nice you can blow off a little steam and know people aren't going to be all judgemental on you or tell you to "suck it up, my life is worse than yours". But yeah, school can be very annoying and time consuming. I guess my advice for that would be to just try to enjoy your learning as much as you can. Enjoy the fact that you have classes with people you know. Even if you don't appreciate it now, you will down the road (trust me). I guess the way I treat university is as its part of my life, but not my life. I see school as an oppurtunity to learn new things, but its also a time to get to know people, and to even watch people you don't know and get a little laugh or enjoyment out of it. Each person is their own character and its something amazing to watch.

 

And now about the parents and soccer thing. Yes that is hard when you just want a little bit of gratification. Not like a huge ego-boost or anything....just a "Good game Anna" or something along those lines. Soccer doesn't last forever either, so enjoy the fact you are involved in a team situation (even if you are more of an individualistic person)...try and have as much fun as you can in games/practices etc. Make fun of yourself a little, it makes sports more fun.

 

And boys......its seems we all end up having problems with broken hearts, broken relationships, crushes, etc. Usually things like that really bog you down, but they do seem to work themselves out or just become a non-issue after time. If there are things you think you should do about the situation but are too nervous, just go for it and see what happens. If it gives you peace of mind its worth it.

But from what I've seen in life, not all guys are jerks. There are lots of good ones out there, and eventually you'll find the one for you.

 

Hope that helps Anna. You're an awesome person! Hope the sun starts to shine a little brighter for you.

My knees are fucked up :(

Enjoy the fact that you have classes with people you know. Even if you don't appreciate it now, you will down the road (trust me).

 

i can't agree with this and stress this enough. i know your school is slightly bigger than mine was, anna, but not by that much. treasure the fact that you go to a school like you do, because uni will knock your socks off with its strangeness and bigness. you might like those things better than i do, but i don't think you'll ever regret having had smaller classes with people you actually know. that's something i miss so bad i can taste it.

 

life has its ups and downs, though, and i promise that an up will come, probably sooner than you think, too :D

i can't agree with this and stress this enough. i know your school is slightly bigger than mine was, anna, but not by that much. treasure the fact that you go to a school like you do, because uni will knock your socks off with its strangeness and bigness. you might like those things better than i do, but i don't think you'll ever regret having had smaller classes with people you actually know. that's something i miss so bad i can taste it.

 

So true. Non-university is much more of a social extravaganza. Which can have its downers, but looking back on it it was so worth it. Not to say I don't enjoy my situation now. Its just much different. And I'm finding it hilarious.

 

For example this week I wore a hideous neon green silk shirt to all my classes, just because I knew that nobody would care. Its both sad, but also hilarious...that people are so caught up in their work they can't take time to find amusement in little things.

i have to say that i don't enjoy my situation now at all. i didn't even have that many downers with the smaller system. it was definitely more chill back then. wearing a green silk shirt to class in my old school would have been the best thing (and people actually did things of that ilk all the time and it was great), but here, no one would find it funny. in fact, you'd probably be mocked for years. not that i'd care, but it makes me sad that people here usually find strangeness and uniqueness threatening rather than funny.

Awww, Anna. :( School can be a pain in the ass, especially these days when everyone expects you to get the best results possible in every subject, in every part of your private and public life. You should just try to do your best, don't compare yourself with other students. And if you get a worse mark than you expected, just try to get a better one next time. Don't let it make you feel you're a failure, no matter what others say. And always have in mind you're studying for yourself, grades don't bear so much importance later in "the real life".

 

About soccer and your parents, what if you told them that you'd like to hear some encouraging words, and not only constructive criticism? That's good of course, but sometimes we all need just a pat on the back.

 

I think you should tell the boy what you feel about him, especially if what he has with the other girl isn't really serious. I know it's not the easiest thing in the whole universe to do, but you can't just be in limbo. Oh and he should tell you why is he acting the way he is ...

 

 

Anna, I hope you feel a bit better with all these advices everyone here's posted :nice: I'm sure you'll get better soon! :hug:

The best time for education is with college and uni, the point after all the idiots who don't want to be in the class has gone away.

^in my experience, it's the exact opposite. most people were more intelligent and into it in my high school then they are in my uni. at least in this country, uni/college has become almost required, another thing that you pretty much HAVE to go through to fit in a comfortable place in society, so there are just as many slackers there as there are in most high schools.

Aw guys, thank you so much for your support. It really means a lot to be able to able to just rant and rant about anything, whether it's stupid or actually important, and have people (wise and friendly people for that matter!) respond and help you out.

 

It's possible I exaggerated a bit with the school thing. My grades aren't slipping majorly, 3 or 4 percent below what I usually get isn't the hugest deal. With soccer, I really don't care what my parents think because they don't understand that I am just doing it for fun, which is what I'm going to continue to do and get better at the same time. If they don't want to, they don't have to come to my games.

 

And the boy thing is pretty stupid also. Friendships are so much more important because you never know what will happen with this stuff...

 

On the plus side... I'm seeing a Beck concert on Wednesday, The Killers and Coldplay later in the month, and Vampire Weekend in December :D

I need to rant:

 

 

OK OK OK..............

How would you feel if you had a really deep secret, that you have never told anyone and you didn't want anyone to know and no one needed to know. Well that's what I have and I have lived with this secret for quite sometime now, until today. No I didn't tell and I still strongly deny anything that they will say but how did they find out?

 

I'll tell you how they found out. They raided my rubbish- literally and I feel absolutely heartbroken and shattered. Why would someone do that? They broke my privacy.

 

My secret is personal and affects no one but myself. No it's not drugs, i'm not a sex addict, i'm nothing bad but what they did was completely unnecessary my secret was a secret for my own reason. It was my deepest secret and something that I would never ever let anyone find out for my own reasons.

 

They've totally destroyed me by what they've done because it is impossible for them to understand; to know. IT IS IMPOSSIBLE. I know you say it's not but if you could truly trust me despite how stupid this sounds. Truly trust me please.

 

Usually I would say someone would always understand but not in this case and nor would I want to put such a heavy burden on someone. I'd rather we all just lived our lives and have fun but trust me this secret is so deep that that couldn't happen. It's something startling that would cause people to whisper and something that never goes away. You will always be judged by it and it is something that you will never ever truly get over.

 

Ok so this secret isn't something that I intentionally choose to suffer with. I'm just one of the unfortunate few who hate it but are trapped by it but now that those who know, know. I'll be punished and disciplined for what appears to be stupidity. Well I'm sorry, i'm sorry, I am sorry but you can't punish me because it is me. As much as I want to tell you what the secret it is I can't because when you see my posts and think of me, you will think of it.

 

Basically it's something that haunts me and I battle with every second of my life. Something that makes so careful with everything I do. Something which makes cover my paths a million times so no one would dare to suspect and I was coping fine until they broke my privacy. Because the most important thing to me, was to protect everyone else- never ever let them know.

I'm so so sorry, they should not have done that at all. :sad: You should talk to them about leaving your privacy alone.

Uni is the place to smoke weed and get stoned

 

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