a cliche "I feel depressed" thread.

[alyssa]

Sorry, there's a lot of text here. You don't have to bother reading. I wouldn't.

 

Well, if you've made it this far, first of all, I hardly have any problems in my life. I have nothing to whine about. I have plenty of food, shelter, good health, a loving family, health insurance, a car, loving friends, not in debt, my parents have secure jobs, etc etc, but lately I haven't been able to escape feeling a bit depressed.

 

I have a really hard time getting myself to do the simplest tasks. Getting up in the morning, being on time to class, doing my homework, doing chores, keeping up with projects, etc etc. I feel like I've dug myself into a deep hole, and now that my final exams and projects are all due, I'm either gonna fall out of the other side of the hole or dig myself out, but just falling even deeper seems like the easiest way out. =/ I might fail one of my classes just because I've been late every day. Also I've missed all state college application deadlines and I've been letting my grades slip like crazy. I'm being selfish and letting everyone down around me, especially my mom. I made a promise to her on her birthday on the 28th of December that I'd be less selfish and help her around the house and do better and school, and now I feel like an outright tw*t for not being even close to fulfilling that promise. Already I'm pissed off about how selfish my tone is right now.

 

Right now I'm up at 1AM because I was supposed to email a paper to my teacher before midnight, but I haven't even started. For some reason, every time I procrastinate it leads to a lot of introspection, which in turn makes me feel a bit sh**ty and I don't get anything done. Every time I have something to do, I think about how hard it's going to be and I distract myself (by, I dunno, going on this site, myspace, just chatting, doing various hobbies) from it as long as possible until all my little tasks and problems snowball and become overwhelming.

 

I've lost my cool a bunch of times in the past 1 or 2 months and I used to never do that at all. I actually used to take pride in how well I was able to control my emotions. =/ Now, I always find myself mad at myself for not getting something done or reaching a goal, or just plain being stupid, and then in that process I get mad at myself for being selfish and I know I'm going to be too lazy to correct whatever problem that caused me to be mad in the first place and it's all just some sort of vicious cycle. Both of my hands are bruised at the knuckles from punching the walls in my room. My right hand has looked a bit swollen and bruised ever since I first screwed it up 2 years ago when I punched something in anger after accidentally crashing into my dad's car.

 

In August & September of last year I remember feeling really, really happy for weeks, and now I just feel quite hopeless. I have vicious mood swings--not on a daily basis but more on a weekly cycle. Also, for the most part, no one notices because I somehow manage to keep the same outside demeanor amongst my friends and family. I know at some later point in my life when I'm happy I'm gonna come across this and say "haha, wow I was unnecessarily depressed... again," which makes me feel stupid as well because I know I have the ability to get over whatever crap I'm in right now, I'm just too self-absorbed and dwell so much. I know why I feel like this right now but the same reason why I'm feeling down is what is keeping me from getting out!

 

Though, if there's anything positive about this post, I have NOT turned to drugs and caused relatively little harm to myself and others, at least physically...

[alyssa]

Oh yes, I LOVE to feel depressed. Sometimes when I feel DEPRESSED ME ACCEPT DRUGS in order to obtain [osvobozhdannym] of pressure, and sometimes ME YOU BURN MY EYES with the matches. But never have me it always burnt any of the eye of elses because that abominably.

 

You must burn your eyes with the match in order to make [chyvstvo] more best. Or accept some drugs. Or begin the disorder of food.

 

My god, I take back what I said about you not being entertaining.

 

That made no sense at all, and it's hilarious.

[Ms Magpie]

Alyssa, I'd have to think a lot to make any possibly good advice, but this is what I think: computer is a devil. Avoid it at all costs if you want to make anything before the deadline.

 

Maybe making a to-do list could be of any help? If you manage to do at least some things from it, it'll make you feel better, I guess.

 

:hug:

[Pseudonym]

If you have a loving family, turn to them.

 

 

That's more than some people can say they've had to get through dark times.

[localola86]

I feel like I've dug myself into a deep hole, and now that my final exams and projects are all due, I'm either gonna fall out of the other side of the hole or dig myself out, but just falling even deeper seems like the easiest way out.

 

I've lost my cool a bunch of times in the past 1 or 2 months and I used to never do that at all. I actually used to take pride in how well I was able to control my emotions. =/

 

In August & September of last year I remember feeling really, really happy for weeks, and now I just feel quite hopeless.

 

Though, if there's anything positive about this post, I have NOT turned to drugs and caused relatively little harm to myself and others, at least physically...

 

I know exactly what you're going thru!

I got "Sophomore slump" two springs ago. I felt into this depression, which is that I'm-stuck-in-a-hole feeling you're describing. I remember spending January of 2007 crying everyday :bigcry:, I had to drop two out of five classes, get therapy, and sign up at a gym to get exercise to relax. Time heals all wounds, and that's completely true. I think I got out of it by April. Yes, at times I think it was stupid to get that depressed, and how I let myself fall into that state, BUT things happen for a reason. I have a better idea now of what I want to do with my life, and how I see life in general has changed for the better as well.

 

A turning point was when the psychiatrist prescribed pills for the anxiety (yeah, it turns out I was depressed because of an anxiety disorder). I started taking them, but after a week I quit. My grandma has to take pills until she dies for her manic depression disorder, and I didn't want to end that way.

 

GET HELP! And I mean professional help. Is there a psychologist at your school? Talk to your friends, parents, anyone you trust for the meantime.

EXERCISE! It works wonders in releasing your stress.

EAT! I remember my weight drop since all my body would accept was yogurt and fruit. I felt like I had a stomachache ALL the time.

LISTEN TO MUSIC! I forget how many times I listened to The Fray's "How to Save a Life" I would also recommend Jason Mraz, a happy-go-lucky singer-songwriter whose songs put you in a great mood in a snap.

And Eglantine's advice about the do-to lists is good too!

 

I'm blessed with all those things you talk about at the beginning (likely to graduate with no debt :dance:). Whenever I felt a bit sad, I think about how lucky I am. Oh, it stopped raining, I should go out for a walk :D

[Ryujiki]

I used to feel like that just a couple of years ago,and sometimes i feel "down" when I have to wake up early to go to my job .

 

One of the things that help me the most was talking about it,create a blog just to read what I wrote and check if that make sense.

 

You already "speak up" which is a good.

[localola86]

create a blog just to read what I wrote and check if that make sense.

 

I was thinking of creating a blog. I have read about how beneficial it is.

[cold_love23]

I used to feel like that just a couple of years ago,and sometimes i feel "down" when I have to wake up early to go to my job .

 

One of the things that help me the most was talking about it,create a blog just to read what I wrote and check if that make sense.

 

You already "speak up" which is a good.

 

Or just keeping a diary works as well.

You have to let your emotions out some how.. and if you don't feel comfortable talking to someone then a diary is a good idea. After a few weeks when you go back and read your earlier entries, you will probably notice a difference in your attitude. :)

[Guest LiquidSky]

I think everyone goes through that.. specially when you are a teenager.. You have insecurities even though we think we don't.. we do. Our hormones are changing like crazy.. and we have mood swings every minute at least it feels like it.. and most days feel like either a deja vu or just plain numb.

 

When you are thinking too much of something it draws you in even more.. you gotta stop thinking about how you feel and concentrate on things that make you happy and things you like to do. It's hard to move on when you just don't know..but that's okay it's part of the process.

[ApproximatelyInfinite]

the first thing i would say is find someone to talk to. i think a lot of people get embarrassed about going to a school counselor or something, but it can do WONDERS for you. at the very least, find a teacher or someone you can really talk to.

 

in a lot of ways, i know how you feel, feeling a bit depressed when there's nothing really wrong. that's really how i feel a lot these days, for lack of a better word. i'm currently in one of those life-holes, those stuck places where you're just waiting for the current stage you're in to pass and for the future to come in and for something to happen. for me, that means getting out of college, which i hate. i have a lot to look forward to, though, and that's what keeps me going. i would try to find something about the nearish future that you can really look forward to.

 

also, for paper writing help, completely disable the wifi antenna in your computer or physically remove the ethernet cord :wink:. that's the only way i can get anything done!

 

a bit scary that you've missed the college deadlines, though. do you have any plan for next year? for some people, a year off can be really beneficial, but for others, damning.

[Famous Old Painter]

You seem to be a good cure for depression Yak.

 

I went through a major state of depression about half a year ago, I couldn't cope. But it all comes to pass. Like right now I'm in a great band, have lots of friends and a brand new girlfriend. All is well, though sometimes you feel like none of that matters at all.

[Famous Old Painter]

Ok.........

 

Dont know if I read that right, there's nothing sexual between us at the moment...

[Plug_in_coldplaying]

I miss you,hopefully everything will be alright as soon as possible

[Famous Old Painter]

Oh, there nothing it is sexual? That LARGE shame, it makes me very sad for you. Why you without having sexual? She COLD OF BOUGH?!? :angry:

 

You tell in it from me it must MAKE SEX on you. And if she rejects even still, then you hold it you lower and YOU ASSUME ITS SEX effort. As is furious in proportion to you you love, create MANY rapid currents to its womanly of tele-.

 

:laugh3::lol::laugh3:

 

I'm not even going to follow that up with anything.

[emedy]

When i'm depressed I just watch glasto05 "everything's not lost".It really helps me.