calm the f**k down! :)

Do you really know how much I do by myself? I have to clean up for your messes because your not responsible enough to act wisely. And your the adult. Just because dad dropped his responsibilities, you shouldn't. Why do you hold grudges for stupid childish things? Everyone asks me why I don't do more with my life. It's because I'm stressed enough patrolling your whole life. I'm going to college in two years! I need help! :angry::sick:

Days of no sleeping, caked in mud. All kinds of poison in my blood, I lost the only thing I ever loved...

 

Why did it have to end like this and why won't you talk to me? I know your done with me and you're having a blast in life, but...call me crazy I still love you...Its gonna be hard seeing you in Choir, English, and Math.

Do you really know how much I do by myself? I have to clean up for your messes because your not responsible enough to act wisely. And your the adult. Just because dad dropped his responsibilities, you shouldn't. Why do you hold grudges for stupid childish things? Everyone asks me why I don't do more with my life. It's because I'm stressed enough patrolling your whole life. I'm going to college in two years! I need help! :angry::sick:

 

I don't know if you're really asking for help or just saying :laugh3: fear not, I'm in he same position as you :P

Thanks :)

Oh Jackie I didn't realize it was you! XD, wow I'm retarded, ok maybe I'm a year behind you bit still :P :laugh3:

You've changed, and not in a good way. It's great that you're strengthening your relationship with God, but you're doing it all wrong. How do I know? Ever since you started on that path, you've become worse, not better, like I thought people were supposed to do. You used to be so much fun. You used to have fewer inhibitions. You used to be real. As much as you get onto Dad for being the way he is, believe it or not, you are becoming JUST LIKE HIM. Oh yeah, I went there. It's true. You never treated me like garbage before that. I don't know what the hell your problem is, but you had damn well better figure it out.

I should've known I couldn't trust you.

Stop treating me like an idiot when it's you that's screwed this up. I'm so ready to quit!

Do you not realize that your butt-crack is showing?

It should have been me and now i'm not even invited to the wedding. I wonder if that one day decided the fate of my whole life.

For the past 2.5 years and especially the last month i have been feeling really depressed. i feel like you have ruined what could have been some of the best years of my life and now when finally things are in a way slowly getting better, you may take it all away from me. I think you should stop thinking about trying to make yourself feel 'successful' and focus more on your family. I feel as if all of your decisions are made just to benefit yourself.

 

hmmmmm....if only i could actually say that....

I am aware of every fault I have and wonder if the millions small things outweigh everything good and make it impossible. For I am the type of person to always love, care and be there. But I fear the physical is too much to overcome. I'm not being pompous for I could list a thousand faults that probably outweigh the good. But sadly they are all in themselves not much nor that bad at all, but combined probably too much. I am a caring person who values others and relationships above all else. I've bent over backwards for others, to be kind and loving. But in this world that in itself probably will never be enough, sadly. I think without those combined fault's I'd truly be great for you. Perfect in that aspect but filled with fault's in every other. I wonder if the reverse of that wouldn't be as bad, just for the other at the receiving end. But for me selfishly it would work like it does for everyone else. The constant overhang of those thoughts are paralyzing at best. That's why the year deadline matters so much. To put at ease the wasted wondering and find out. I cannot stand these big questions anymore in the quiet of the night, it's answers that fuel now.

har

I just found All Mankind on the soundtrack for FIFA 12 and their new song is so epic it blows my mind. This song makes me believe that no matter how crappy things might be at times, everything will turn out OK! You have to check out this video

It will make your day, I swear!!

 

This IS a na amazing song. Z People keep recommending them, but I've not checked them out till now. Thanks. :)

 

I wish I could say no.

Ciao

STFU. This is the worst singing I've ever heard! :p

I'm going to miss seeing you in the hallway.

So glad that I realised what kind of person you are. Since then, I've stop thinking about you completely and I'm grateful. Good luck with your future anyway.

You're just a bad habit.

so many, ugh god, so so many things i wish could say

scheiße scheiße scheiße

 

scheiße scheiße scheiße

 

yay, the sharp s looks like a b, totally my day

I did an awesome job on that Russian test today.

You're undercutting people who work hard. If it's just a hobby, step back!