it still is.....it still can be:disappointed:

Hey Julia! :kiss:

It's not gonna die as long as we have our random chats here ...

Heya Imke:kiss:

 

haha right.....how are you?:wacko:

I'm fine. :wacko: Already in pjs since I have an early class tomorrow, yes I have to go to uni on a freaking Saturday. :disappointed:

How are you?

ah that sucks:disappointed:

 

but hey I have to work tomorrow, too....and since it's christmas time I have to work until 7pm...and I start at 10am...:sick:

 

and I'm a bit confused.....I'd love to tell someone that I like him and that I'd love to meet him more often actually, but I just can't....ahhhhhhhh...:bigcry:

I only have to stay until 12 and after that I'm gonna do some shopping. :wacko:

 

Is it that someone you told me about earlier, the one with the smiliar music taste etc.? And why can't you? Too shy? :disappointed:

ahhh that's ok-....when do you start?

 

heheh well....no.....it's someone who probably gave me my chances and I've missed them...because we were always drunk anyways-----and yesterday we weren't....and I'd just love to meet him more often, because I just really would love to...:bigcry:

 

and yes I am too shy....esp. because he is a friend of mine who I do not see that often and I've known him since 2 years now....

I only start at 10, but since I have to take the train I have to get up pretty early. :disappointed:

 

But you never know ... maybe he feels the same after you talked non-drunk. And if he's a friend anyway, you could just ask him to meet you.

 

But hey ... I won't blame you for being too shy, I never keep my own advice anyway. :confused:

ah that sucks....do you always have to go to uni on saturdays?

 

I don't really know....I hope so....I mean we are just so similar...masters of bad jokes, etc....I could do that, but I know I won't...I always wait until someone asks me which never happens...and whenever we are drunk we start flirting, but I don't know how serious he is then...so I'd love to meet him more often when we are not drunk....I wish I told him yesterday that we do not really see each other often which is a pity...I feel like such a loser right now, because I always miss my chances and regret it afterwards...:disappointed:

 

 

ahhh I so know what you are talking about....it's so easy saying these things, but not easy to do it actually...

No, only this Saturday. But I had to go last Sunday too ... and I hate to go to uni on weekends ... I already spend too much time in that stupid city. :uhoh:

 

Hmm, I see. Well, I don't think the chance is over. You could still tell him on the phone (or maybe just via SMS) that you enjoyed your conversation and that you'd like to see him more often.

 

I'm really good at telling people what they should do, but I rarely do it myself. I'm such a hypocrite.

This thread is seriously scary, I have never had the courage to click until now.

 

Now i'm here :uhoh:

I understand....going to uni on weekends must really suck....I am glad I never had to do that....:sick:

 

I can tell you that I am definitely too shy for that...something inside me tells me not to do it, although I don't have to loose anything...I am just not selfconfident enough for this I guess....ahh life sucks sometimes....I could be happy if I wasn't blockading (is that an english word?:wacky:) myself....:bigcry:

 

you are not the only hypocrite then....I do have to give people advice so often....and I never do those things I keep telling them...:disappointed:

This thread is seriously scary, I have never had the courage to click until now.

 

Now i'm here :uhoh:

 

Mwhahahhaahhaha...:evil:

:escaping:

I understand....going to uni on weekends must really suck....I am glad I never had to do that....:sick:

 

I can tell you that I am definitely too shy for that...something inside me tells me not to do it, although I don't have to loose anything...I am just not selfconfident enough for this I guess....ahh life sucks sometimes....I could be happy if I wasn't blockading (is that an english word?:wacky:) myself....:bigcry:

 

you are not the only hypocrite then....I do have to give people advice so often....and I never do those things I keep telling them...:disappointed:

 

I'm gonna survive it.

 

Oh yes. Welcome to my world. I sometimes even have problems to say hi to people on messengers.

I lack self-confidence too, but the way to get past it is too just do what you're afraid of. And now I'm being a hypocrite again, because I rarely "just do it". And I know what you mean with blockading (I think it's a word :P) yourself. I guess I'm doing that a lot myself, but I'm working on it. I know it can't go on like this forever and I feel old because I missed so many chances in my life and it was totally my fault.

 

This thread is seriously scary, I have never had the courage to click until now.

 

Now i'm here :uhoh:

 

Haha ... well it's not really scary right now and I don't think it ever was. :uhoh2:

The title just frightens me, alot. What the hell is a "Venus In Fur"? :rolleyes:

I'm gonna survive it.

 

Oh yes. Welcome to my world. I sometimes even have problems to say hi to people on messengers.

I lack self-confidence too, but the way to get past it is too just do what you're afraid of. And now I'm being a hypocrite again, because I rarely "just do it". And I know what you mean with blockading (I think it's a word :P) yourself. I guess I'm doing that a lot myself, but I'm working on it. I know it can't go on like this forever and I feel old because I missed so many chances in my life and it was totally my fault.

 

 

oh I think we are so alike when it comes to this. And I seriously should get rid of that blockade, beause in the end I will probably have lived such an unhappy life which was not even necessary...I should probably just do what I feel like, but then I just think too much about it....what he could think....what my best friend could think....what xy could think....this is so retarted....I shouldn't give a damn actually....ah shit...and I have also missed so many chances, because I can never take it seriously if someone is interested in me...I often only realss eit when it is too late...:dozey:

 

The title just frightens me, alot. What the hell is a "Venus In Fur"? :rolleyes:

 

 

welcome Mr. William....what can I do for you?:lips:

 

oh I think we are so alike when it comes to this. And I seriously should get rid of that blockade, beause in the end I will probably have lived such an unhappy life which was not even necessary...I should probably just do what I feel like, but then I just think too much about it....what he could think....what my best friend could think....what xy could think....this is so retarted....I shouldn't give a damn actually....ah shit...and I have also missed so many chances, because I can never take it seriously if someone is interested in me...I often only realss eit when it is too late...:dozey:

 

Yup, we should make a pact to get rid of our stupid blockade. Because in the end it's not about what others think ... and I think it's actually kinda selfish to think that other people have nothing better to do than thinking negative about you in any way. That's what I keep telling myself, because, seriously, people have more important stuff to do than that.

Yeah ... I think it's kinda pathetic when your friends have to tell you that someone just tried to flirt with you. :freak:

:wtf:

 

I'm thinking about leaving and never coming back :uhoh:

:wtf:

 

I'm thinking about leaving and never coming back :uhoh:

 

:lips: :lips: :lips:

you are so right about this....it's what I keep telling myself too, but after all I care too much about what others think of me...but it's my life and my happiness and I shouldn't give a damn...

 

haha that happened to me quite often...my best friend had to tell me that someone tried to flirt with me and I just acted too mate like and that's why that persons gets the impression I am not interested....

 

and I often think why someone should like me....should think I am so special that he should meet me more often...Julia, that girl who is always funny but who barely talks about herself...I do not even know what could make me interesting and when I think about it long enough I do not know what is so special about other girls as well...:freak:

:wtf:

 

I'm thinking about leaving and never coming back :uhoh:

 

stay:whip:

 

here:whip:

 

you cannot resist my sweet jukebox condoms:lips:

 

(erm how old are you?:uhoh:)

Not as old as you probably :uhoh:

 

I'm want to get out of here :bigcry:

you are so right about this....it's what I keep telling myself too, but after all I care too much about what others think of me...but it's my life and my happiness and I shouldn't give a damn...

 

haha that happened to me quite often...my best friend had to tell me that someone tried to flirt with me and I just acted too mate like and that's why that persons gets the impression I am not interested....

 

and I often think why someone should like me....should think I am so special that he should meet me more often...Julia, that girl who is always funny but who barely talks about herself...I do not even know what could make me interesting and when I think about it long enough I do not know what is so special about other girls as well...:freak:

 

Yup, that's it. I know it's hard to stop thinking about what others might think. I actually already care much less than I did a few years ago, so it's always possible to change yourself as long as you're aware of your own problems.

 

Yeah ... happened to me too. :freak:

 

But in the end why should that girl next door be more special than you?! She's just different.

I barely talk about myself either ... that's part of my problem, but I guess I just have issues with trust and a person really needs to convince me before I actually start talking ... and that can be a pretty time-consuming process. :freak:

 

 

Not as old as you probably :uhoh:

 

I'm want to get out of here :bigcry:

 

Why do you keep coming back then? :lips: You want too and you know it.

I know that trust problem, too.....I think I do not even trust my best friend...that's why she actually doesn't know everything about me which makes me feel awkward sometimes when I'm with her...:confused:

 

 

ahhhh shit....I guess there is just one tiny step missing to write him right now...:bigcry:

 

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

 

I can't:disappointed:

 

and about other girls....yes they are different....but I easily get jealous about other peoples' looks' etc....esp. about looks:disappointed:

 

yesterday I realised that I am so jealous of my best friend when it comes to these things....she always looks good...is really happy with her boyfriend...and I am so lonely and so dependent on her....which sucks:disappointed: