Have you ever gave up on a relationship because you didnt think it could be love, and now you have to look back and regret it?

 

I mean you have to live with this because its your fault, not their's, it was your decision not to go for it, what are you supposed to do now? Its so hard to try and take them back because, it was your idea to break it off, and then it just looks like your screwing with them.

 

I know a lot of feelings that come from love are terrible, rejection, being betrayed, falling out of it, but this feels like the worst to me. I've never felt something slowly eat at me so consistently over 3 months.

 

I could've had her, she wanted a more serious relationships and I didnt think we were right for eachother, what the hells wrong with me? Now shes got a boyfriend, and genuinely does not seem interested in me now.

 

Actually we're best friends now, which kills like hell sometimes. I just look in her eyes and see nothing there for me, shes got no affection but those of a friend.

 

Maybe I should stop drinking and typing. Fo sho.

The whole point of this thread= Someone hold me

=(

 

But when you break it off with somebody, those are the steps to finding someone else that you might be happy with for the rest of your life.

 

And if you still feel something for somebody, you should tell them.

That's stupid to say, seeing as it's easy to tell someone to do, but hard to actually act on.

 

And never should anybody doubt a thing about love, because usually when you doubt if you love somebody, if you tell them that, than you're actually really in love. =P

Did that really make any sense?

I understood!

 

Well, I have told her, but she told me its a phase, I'll get over it, and I'll find someone else. This was a many weeks ago.

 

Since that, Ive convinced her that I'm fine now, and we're completely comfortable as friends. I'd tell her again, but I know deep inside that she has to realise I still really like her, I mean its damn obvious, whenever we're drunk I do tend to try and kiss her. She isnt good with dealing with emotions, shes emotionally simple, she doesnt dare to understand what I'm going through, she just knows I still like her but she thinks it'll pass and its not a big deal. She doesnt realise that I dont want it to pass.

 

I know what you mean about doubting being in love. I mean, if you arent even asked the question of whether or not you love someone, and you are thinking of reasons why you dont, then you obviously do.

 

Well, thanks for your help, sometimes I just need someone to talk to and hear from. It really helps put things in perspective.

I hope you get what you need, because what you want sometimes isn't the best thing. ^_^

reileeeooo

is this the awkward thread girl or not??

gaaah... i have no idea whats going on with you anymore... we havent talked in aaages :sick:

I sometimes mistake love for hate and beat up the ones i love, its not fun.

The whole point of this thread= Someone hold me

 

 

:kiss:

 

I still love you.

Have you ever gave up on a relationship because you didnt think it could be love, and now you have to look back and regret it?

 

I mean you have to live with this because its your fault, not their's, it was your decision not to go for it, what are you supposed to do now? Its so hard to try and take them back because, it was your idea to break it off, and then it just looks like your screwing with them.

 

I know a lot of feelings that come from love are terrible, rejection, being betrayed, falling out of it, but this feels like the worst to me. I've never felt something slowly eat at me so consistently over 3 months.

 

I could've had her, she wanted a more serious relationships and I didnt think we were right for eachother, what the hells wrong with me? Now shes got a boyfriend, and genuinely does not seem interested in me now.

 

Actually we're best friends now, which kills like hell sometimes. I just look in her eyes and see nothing there for me, shes got no affection but those of a friend.

 

Maybe I should stop drinking and typing. Fo sho.

 

 

*hug*

Is this the awkward thread girl then, like Mariana asked? If it is, I dunno what to say. I mean you can't help feeling the way you do, but if she's told you to move on, maybe you should. But then again, why let go of something this special. ARGH! I hate emotions.

 

Off-topic:I still have feelings for the guy I was talking to you about in that thread, we were 'friends' for a while, but things were still awkward between us, in the 'we both like each other but neither of us is talking about it' way. So I asked him why he gets so nervous around me, and scared him off I think because he hasn't said a word to me since. And I do miss him so.

 

I know what you mean about not wanting to move on though, I mean why should you if there's even the remotest chance she might feel the same way as you deep down?

 

I say stick with it, see it through until you get to 'an end'. It might not be a happy one but it will mean you can move on either way right?

 

Sorry for the rambling :kiss:

Yeah guys its the girl from the Awkward thread, it just keeps going and going. Thanks Sam

 

I'd like to just forget about it and I try moving on but the moment Im given a second to myself its all I can think of. I have had a stomach cramp about it for weeks now.

 

Im really weak and unmotivated to do anything recently, somethings definately wrong here

that sounds bad Reillo!!!

 

anyway, these kind of threads of yours make me depressed somehow...

Oh Reilleo...

even if she told u to move on... maybe u should talk to her. Is the bfriend around now or still far away?? coz i remember the things u told me, and it seemed like a pretty bad relationship. (well, unless its a new bf now, that would make things different).

 

I think u should try and tell her again how you are feeling. just so that she knows that it isnt something thats going away even though uve tried to make it go (even if u havent really tried...)

 

well... thats just my opinion...

^^^ i dunno mariana ...he said he talked to her...........i think it' very hard to tell somone who as he said that shes emotionally simple , i dunno about awkward thread but i asume that she's over him by now.........i guess.......:thinking: . but i don't mean to put u down or anything. thats just my opinion......i raed what u posted your here b4.......& i kinda had the same thing hapeeaing to me.....but u jusy have to realise that he\she is over you...& thats it.....i know it's cruel......

OMG! thinking about it reminds me of what happeaned b4 to me.it sucks .....i know!!!!!:(

 

 

 

I know guys, shes over me, there really aint no going back.

 

Her boyfriend is still far away, so we still spend a lot of time together as friends. We still share the bed and hug and hold eachother a lot, which is beginning to get really difficult to do for me, it makes me feel worse. So close, yet so far away.

 

I guess eventually I'm going to have to tell her we shouldnt be such close friends, because I cant take it.

 

The main advice everyone has been telling me is to get over it, which I usually could, but could you get over someone that you are constantly around? Staying everynight at their house, drinking and laughing and talking about personal stuff?

 

I dont think you could, which is why I should stop trying to make such a close friendship work, when I think I want more then that.

 

Yeah

Reilly, honestly, if u told her how u felt and ure still gonna do the same thing u used to, u know where that can go...

As u said before here, when ure drunk u try to kiss her, and eventually it will happen (AGAIN), and it will get all messy (AGAIN), and things will get weird (AGAIN)... see a pattern there? :thinking:

 

(and dont use the end of the semester as a great way to justify going throu this AGAIN, coz i think that ure looking for more than that now...)

 

imo uve got 2 options: confront her, tell her again how u feel, but be VERY CLEAR, and make sure u dont send any mixed signals hun... (u remember what happened last time?) and tell her that if she really doesnt want anything more than your friendship, u'll have to stay away from her for a while (and u should do that, coz as u said, its hard to get over someone when u are constantly with that person...). She'll either let u go, or realize that maybe she wants to be with u... (coz your relationship pretty much sums up the whole 'u only realize how much u want it when u lose it...' thing)

 

or u can do nothin else about it and try to get over it by pretending everything is ok around her, which will eventually become unbearable, u will suffer way more and the odds of u 2 ever getting close again will be very small...

 

but then again, thats just what i think...

That makes a lot of sense Marianoo, and sums up a lot of what Im thinking (Like, the most important parts).

 

Another complicated thing is, I dont know if I even want her as a girlfriend, I do like her as a friend and being intimate, but I'm such a screwed up emotional guy that I dont want any girl to have to deal with me all the time, it just isnt fair. I'd also find myself becoming dependant on the girl to feel good.

 

So, Mariano, I'm going to try and spend more time apart from her, but I dont think I should tell her about it. If she wants to hang out and I tell her I'm busy with work or too tired, she has a lot of trust for me and wouldnt think I'm lieing.

 

If I did tell her that I need to spend more time away from her because I like her too much, what if she does feel the same way? She'd break up with her boyfriend, who shes very happy with, for me, who is unreliable. I like her now but who knows how I'll feel in 2 months, her relationship is long term and could result in a lot of happiness. Who am I to screw with that.

 

She probably doesnt feel that way anyway, I've made it pretty obvious I like her. Although I havent sat down and told her it, she must know that I do...

 

It doesnt matter anyway, I like her a lot and feel bad about not being with her intimately, but Im not ready to have a girlfriend right now, and thats the end of that.

 

So I'm just going to have to stop spending so much time with her, I'll still go out partying with her, but no more staying in her bed or watching films with her all day long. Maybe eventually I can start to like other girls too, and that would help.

Reilly!!!!

u are repeating yourself hunni!!!!

You opened ANOTHER thread about her, and now u say u dont know if u want her as a girlfriend... If u really do love her, then no matter how much of a screw up u are, you'd want to be with her. (and dont say that the fact that u are 'protecting' her from you shows even more love, coz it doesnt).

 

I think its wise of u to try and take some time away from her, but im scared that by lying to her she will eventually come after you (like it has happened before), and it might put u in awkward situations again (i still pitty the poor studying girl...), but maybe thats the only way to go, considering u really dont want her as a girlfriend, because given what happened before, there is a great possibility of her dumping her bf for u and no matter how much u write: ' She probably doesnt feel that way anyway', i know u aware of that possibility...

Firstly, Marianoo, you speak more sense about this part of my life then even I could, I wanted to acknowledge that! If you could get a degree from knowing about this situation of mine, you'd be a millionare.

 

I am a tad drunk.

 

How come for months when I dont mention her on here, nothing much happened, and then tonight she got drunk, sent me 4 texts and then called me? I mean, she never calls me unless its arranged, not even when drinking.

 

Well the text messages said that she loves me, but in a friendly tone, like "Thank god im out of that party, I hate those people, I love you!" and "Aww missing you, kisses mon amis" and things like that.

 

In the phonecall, she was talking a lot of crap, she might have said some really affectionate things, but who knows? We're really close friends, its almost impossible to tell if one of us is coming onto the other. For example, if a girl says to a boy "Im in bed, and I really wish you were here with me" well that would look suspicious, but we share the bed all the time! We sleep ontop of eachother! So its hard to know what shes thinking.

 

(and dont say that the fact that u are 'protecting' her from you shows even more love, coz it doesnt).

 

I'm sorry, but I disagree, and I'd disagree until I die. I'm not trying to look like a fantastic guy here, I really do feel like shes too good for me and doesnt deserve my constant supply of emotional baggage. I go through months of depression sometimes and when I'm sad, shes sad, so I try to put on a happy face for her and not tell her about it. If she was my girlfriend, I dont think I could hide it for that amount of time.

 

If I was assured that I could have a time machine, and I knew that if things didnt work out for us as a couple and I screwed up her life, I could go back to where it all began, I would absolutely love that, I'd totally jump in and try to stop her relationship, I'd wedge myself between her and her boyfriend and I'd do absolutely anything to make her my girlfriend. But I cant, if I was to do that, we'd both have to live with the consequences, and Im such a fuckup that it wouldnt work, I know it.

 

Now I could live on, but I'd hate to know that Im the reason she doesnt have a special relationship in her life. I just dont think I'm worth that risk, I really am not.

 

Thanks again Marianooo

well, that second part i guess we will always disagree... but i admit that u are probably right, at least in your specific case...

 

I go through months of depression sometimes and when I'm sad' date=' shes sad, so I try to put on a happy face for her and not tell her about it. If she was my girlfriend, I dont think I could hide it for that amount of time.[/quote']

 

thats where i think you are doing the wrong thing... in your depression times you shouldnt pretend to her that everything is ok or hide the fact that u are depressed, you should let her help you get out of it... at least if i was the girlfriend id do the possible and impossible to try and get my bf out of it... but you know her better, so maybe shes one of those persons that instead of trying to help. gets depressed too, and just kinda makes things worse...

Firstly' date=' Marianoo, you speak more sense about this part of my life then even I could, I wanted to acknowledge that! If you could get a degree from knowing about this situation of mine, you'd be a millionare.[/quote']

 

oh... and i feel special for that... :blush::nice:

Have you ever gave up on a relationship because you didnt think it could be love, and now you have to look back and regret it?

 

I mean you have to live with this because its your fault, not their's, it was your decision not to go for it, what are you supposed to do now? Its so hard to try and take them back because, it was your idea to break it off, and then it just looks like your screwing with them.

 

I know a lot of feelings that come from love are terrible, rejection, being betrayed, falling out of it, but this feels like the worst to me. I've never felt something slowly eat at me so consistently over 3 months.

 

I could've had her, she wanted a more serious relationships and I didnt think we were right for eachother, what the hells wrong with me? Now shes got a boyfriend, and genuinely does not seem interested in me now.

 

Actually we're best friends now, which kills like hell sometimes. I just look in her eyes and see nothing there for me, shes got no affection but those of a friend.

 

Maybe I should stop drinking and typing. Fo sho.

Just the way i've been feeling lately :disappointed: Totally late but hope you found a nice lady by now reillo, can't wait to listen your new stories if you ever come back, please come back! :bigcry:

Just the way i've been feeling lately :disappointed: Totally late but hope you found a nice lady by now reillo, can't wait to listen your new stories if you ever come back, please come back! :bigcry:

same here :bigcry:

 

now that thread will make think about that topic :\