I can't do it, I keep trying, but every time I think I'm succeeding you pop back into my mind... it's hard, it's really really hard.

1. You know what stop f***ing blaming stuff on me all the time, you are the one who's being a stupid biatch, never knowing what is really going on in your head, stop thinking you're such a good friend you have no clue how many times you've hurt me and I've never said anything and do you even want me to start mentioning how many bad things you did so far at your age?

2. You're sort of beautiful.... I think I'm kind of in love with you

3. You scare me, I'm not kidding you scare me a lot

:confused:

This is a great thread btw

This isn't something I wish I could say to one person in particular; more like something I wish I could say to the world and every single person in it that I've ever met or known.

 

I can only recall a few times in my life when I've been 100% truthful. So this is where I'm going to be 100% truthful (I know, this is far better suited for a blog post, but I can't write about things like this on my blog because my friends read my blog, and I'm too much of a coward). I always find myself wishing I could be entirely myself, which I never am. So I'll finally tell you, 100% truthfully, about myself.

 

All I want in life is to love someone with all my heart and be utterly and completely loved back. I believe in love, and I believe that it is without a doubt the most complex yet important thing in our lives.

 

I am so much smarter than almost everyone my age. The interent is the only place where I allow myself to be arrogant, and I so wish that wasn't true. It's just, I know so much-- about humans and feelings and life and living, at least. And I genuinely get sad when I see all these people around me that are my age, and that are doing all these stupid stupid things that they'll regret in the future.

 

If you could see me on the inside, you would know how needy I actually am. But no one can see that, so I never get what I crave. Which is attention, mainly when I'm sad. Everyone is afraid to give this to me, for some reason that I still haven't figured out. My family doesn't react well with sadness, which is why I wonder sometimes where I came from- I am so different from the people I'm related to. And speaking of attention, I'm the one who calls myself a "follower", instead of a "leader", but I've found lately that I gravitate towards the center of attention. I'm still embarassed when someone gives me recognition for something, yet at the same time, I absolutely love it.

 

I am happy. Everyone in "real life" always says I'm one of the happiest people they've ever known, and that's because it's true. I know I always sound so sad and depressed online, but that's because it's the only place I'm able to dispose of my sad thoughts without being judged. But I am happy; I'm the kind of person who always tries to seize the moment, who tends to look at the positive side of things. I am also crazy, and wild, and there's more to me than a depressed, moody, and polite girl. I have a bad side- a side hardly anyone has seen. I want to show it to someone, though-- I enjoy being crazy, I enjoy taking risks, I enjoy dancing around to loud music, and dressing up nicely, and running around the city at night. I need excitement to be happy, and I get so little of it.

 

And finally, I am obsessive. Once I latch onto something with all of my heart, it becomes a part of me. You can try to take it away, and I often pretend that it's gone, but I can never ever let go of all of my feelings. It's something that's not only impossible for me to do, but something that I often just don't want to do.

 

I don't really know why I'm writing this. I've recently felt like I need to tell someone, anyone, about me, though. I'm tired of holding everything inside!

^ Well, I'm at least glad you shared with us. It's very bold of you to come forward and pour your soul out for the forum to see. :)

 

I believe I understand a lot of what you say. Love is something that I really crave myself, although I never actually manage to find it. Not in that way, anyway. It makes me sad, and I often wonder if I'll ever find someone that would actually accept me as I am and love me for it. However, there are things in life that can show you that not all hope is lost.

 

Being smart is far from being a bad thing. I won't say that I have an IQ of 160 or something, but I like to think that I'm a smart individual myself, and I often think about things that you spoke of in your post: things like emotions and humanity.

 

Listen, everyone is needy for something. That's just who we are as human beings. I will say, however, that I totally get what you mean in that part. I'm not one that usually gets attention at all, but I think it'd be nice to get paid attention to every now and again. And compliments are always nice, and as long as you cna accept them graciously, you shouldn't be embarassed, so much as proud for what you've done.

 

Wow. The obsessive part sounds a lot like me. Once I find something that I truly enjoy, I find that I can't let it go. Sure, there are bad sides to this, but I think it's overall a good thing. Things can help shape who you are as a person, and it may be able to help you realize what it is about yourself that you either like or don't like, but want to change.

 

Well, I don't know if this helped any, but I do hope you know that there are people in the world out there that understand. :)

I crave spontaneity. Don't you just wanna grab hands and jump into a lake together, fully clothed? Don't you want to lie out in the pouring rain together? I am sick and tired of plans. I just want to be happy living life.

"andrew, umm, marry me?"

 

 

 

 

 

 

pretty much.

fuck that :lol:

 

oh how stupid i'm. :rolleyes:

i am scared i will never make it.

i am scared i will end up like them.

i am scared of failing.

i want everything to be perfact. it'd kill me if i will never be the person i want to be. i want to make my friends & family proud and my enemies jealous.

 

 

what if i'll stay the freaking loser for the rest of my life?

Sorry to crush your absurd dreams... but not all 10 of you are gonna become doctors. Especially if you're having major trouble with your grade 12 courses.

 

 

Jeez Louise.

fuck you and you and you!

 

Take me.

No one I think is in my tree ,I mean it must be high or low.

I love you.

You're being a bitch! there's no such thing as a part time friend... and if you know i like him so much, why the hell are you such a flirt when I'm around...?? I don't have time to be wasting on you... you're not even around anymore, go be her best friend. she needs them anyways...

 

:(

If I go to Texas, do you want to hang out? :P

 

I need to find someone who will love me. ...

 

I say a lot........

I still love you like i did in that week i spent with you... but i wanna see u happy, and that's why i'm letting u go.

Okay dunno if you noticed I don't see my teachers as my friends exactly

I'm happy to see you two together even though sometimes it breaks my heart.

i want to live in a wooden house, making more friends would be easy. i want to live where the sun comes out.

:rolleyes:

 

 

 

 

I THINK I'm starting to like you........and it sucks b/c you made it clear you just wanna have fun... :disappointed:

Diooooooooooooooooossssssssssss porque me confundo a lo tonto! Y lo peor es que no se que pensar, a veces parece que si te importa pero otras pienso que no y que te da lo mismo.... porque eres tan complicado.:\

debiste madurar cuando sali de tu utero...

i want to live in a wooden house, making more friends would be easy. i want to live where the sun comes out.

 

:heart:

I wish I could say this to you directly, but we both know I can't :(

I hope you know that you are a truly great person, and always have been :)

I wish I could say this to you directly, but we both know I can't :(

I hope you know that you are a truly great person, and always have been :)

 

+10 :\

debiste madurar cuando sali de tu utero...

 

:stunned:

Coldplay is the worst band ever.