Just one thing for now:

 

Fangirls can be so goddamn annoying. They make legit fans who actually know what the fuck they're talking about look stupid, because other people just throw all of them into the same category, which is not a true case at all.

Why do I have to give up on my dreams for something I didnt decide? Why is this happening when I had finally decided what I wanted to do with my life? Why? What am I gonna do from now and on? Can't believe how much my life's gonna change, can't believe that when I had finally started to feel good with everything around me, when I had started to feel better, I am gonna have to start all over, it's so frustating.

Was the tiara really necessary? Really, I felt kinda put off by that. I know you meant well, but it was just...well, it was kind of awkward, and not in a nice way.

 

However, I do love the derby, so I can forget about the other. Thanks for everything last night. :)

-I think you're the most wonderful and brilliant person ever, and I'm not only saying that because I love you. Don't let anyone ever tell you that you're not amazing. (I don't even know where that came from, but I felt like saying it.) :heart:

I hate you, and I wish you were dead.

kay, gonna use this thread. Strangers, get ready to read my innermost thoughts and feelings:

 

You guys need to leave me the fuck alone. I'm not a lesbian, I'm not asexual, I just don't happen to feel anything for any of our so-called male "peers" -- they're all immature morons and none of them know how to act remotely like grown-ups, and if you think I could ever stand to date someone like that, you haven't been paying attention. LET IT DROP. I'M NOT GOING TO DATE ANYONE RIGHT NOW.

 

Don't know who in particular I wanted to say that at. But now I feel better. This is oddly cathartic, actually. :D

So awesome how no one knows who these are addressed to, for all we know it could be the previous poster. (This is something I wish I could say)

get off yer high-horse and stop pissin about......

No, I don't want to date your daughter. I'm gay.

^HAHA. You should say that. Just to see their reaction. XDXDXD

i dont like the way you act or the way you are...it's pitiful...and i dont really want to be friends anymore. :confused:

^HAHA. You should say that. Just to see their reaction. XDXDXD

 

Seriously, you wouldn't believe how much I get that. From my mom's friends especially... they're going to figure it out eventually, though.

 

Oh, here's something I wish I could tell my granddad (who died years ago when I was younger):

 

Thanks for showing me how to enjoy the simple things in life without ever getting stressed out. Just sitting on the porch and watching the summer day go by is something I'll never forget. And thanks for teaching me how to play pool! You were an awesome dude and I wish you were still around. I hope you get the message, wherever you are.

-I spent exactly 6 hours today studying. 6 hours. Considering I've been awake for just about 10 hours, that's quite a lot of time. And then, when I finally thought I must be allowed to have some freedom, you asked me what I was doing. I told you that I had studied for almost all of my day, and you said "study more". I can't take this, really. I need some time to be myself. I can't constantly be this robot that just sits around and takes chemistry notes all day. Why don't you get that? Yes, it's true-- the past few months have been hard for me, and I haven't been as social as I used to be. But even if you've noticed that, that doesn't mean I suddenly have no life! I still enjoy being a normal human being, the fact that I've been "depressed", for lack of better word, doesn't mean that I'm just going to sit inside and bore myself. YOU NEED TO REALIZE THIS. And I don't know how to make you.

 

-Thank you for giving me a great, fantastic, awesome day. I kind of needed one. :nice:

- i wish i could say the kind of person i really am without being judged. unfortunately that is impossible

, and I haven't been as social as I used to be. But even if you've noticed that, that doesn't mean I suddenly have no life! I still enjoy being a normal human being, the fact that I've been "depressed", for lack of better word, doesn't mean that I'm just going to sit inside and bore myself. YOU NEED TO REALIZE THIS. And I don't know how to make you.

:

 

I feel the same way!...I want to say this to many people too!

can we like move on from the petty insults and just get along?

I obviously don't really know what's going on (I really really wish I did, though :cry:), but I hope with all my heart that you're okay... just please please please, tell me you're okay. :wreck:

How can I let you know everything will be ok :bomb:.

-I'm worried about you, is that silly? I just don't think you're responsible enough. I'm sorry for saying that, but you're going to be on your own... you're so used to having someone do everything for you, and now there won't be anyone to do that. I know as your younger sister it sounds kind of stupid for me to be asking this, but are you really ready? Because I'm afraid you're going to be scared and make some stupid mistake.

 

-I don't know, just please tell me somehow. I need to know. :bigcry:

^i second the first one!

 

 

-please dont rummage through my room! you are so nosy ALL THE TIME!

^I hate ppl that go and nosy into ppl's room!

Lovers, keep on the road you're on,

Runners, until the race is run.

Soldiers, you've got to soldier on.

and

....One day the sun will come out.

-I've realized that patience is a virtue, that even though I've complained about the wait time is already zooming by. Before you and I know it, everything will be how it's supposed to be.

One day...the sun will....come out :nice:.

 

(love those lyrics :lol:)

I'll never forget about you. I love you even more right now than I ever did before, if that's even possible. I'm scared that you'll start moving on, though; that's what's scaring me the most right now. I trust you more than I've ever trusted anyone else in my life, so if you say you'll never forget, I'll try to believe you. But I'm still scared.