please, just stop talking

and the truth is, i miss you

It's disgusting to be related to you.

i miss junior

Swedish coming up.

 

Ditt jävla as. Du tror att jag inte genomskådar din jävla falskhet, du försöker få mig att tro att du bryr dig om mig men det gör du så fan heller. Du är så förbannat godtrogen, du är en jävla ögontjänare, du låtsas bry dig om folk fast du inte gör det bara för att bli omtyckt. Jag hatar dig. Jag hatar dig och ditt jävla sätt att bara bryta upp mitt hjärta och sen lämna det uppbrutet utan nånting förutom det trasiga, det ofullständiga kvar. Du har förstört mig. Jag hatar dig. Förbannade kärlek.

You make me feel guilty for something you did. I don't understand. How come you are suppose to have it all? How come Im suppose to apologize and stand back all the time? This was the first time I told you how I felt and now I feel really bad. What did I do?

Thank you for making my Spring Break an absolutely horrible experience. :|

why is everything about love and depress with somebody in this thread? :shocked2:

 

i'm sad.. it's pathetic i couldn't tell more about it. you aint told me the truth.. and the fact that you were actually still the same.

What do I have to feel about this whole thing?

Read the previous posts in a thread first before you post something. I'm reading the same things over and over again now and that's annoying!

fuck off !!!

I'm such an asskisser. Now I've apologized to you even if I'm not the one to apologize. I've been a bitch to you lately but it's not like you haven't deserved it. I really need to let you know how I feel. How could you know otherwise. How are you supposed to know what goes on inside my head.

*dundundun* are you fucking him???? I dont think he's hot at all but if you do then you know....go for it. I mean he's in your room now anyway.

I miss your late night Burmese songs and chants. Wonder what you're up to now?

 

Send me that soy milk!

I just want to feel needed. And apparently I have to grow up because I want to know what you had to tell her but not me. Feels absolutely fucking great to always be put second, if even that. You've ruined me. Why don't you trust me? I'm in love with you, I would do anything for you. I do everything for you. I change hairstyle for you, don't you see? I seriously considered starting to wear 50s clothes regularly because you said "it would be so awesome if girls would start wearing those kinds of clothes again, wouldn't it?". It's for you. It's all for you.

Standing at the edge of the precipice on the shore I did tell you the truth. I just don't know if I fully realized it yet. I wish for one more night lost on the water with our light failing. 36,000 dollars you didn't waste just postponed what was to come. Now it's time for the continuation even if it's not as you planned when I was a kid. You never listen when I promise.

Holy crap, I just realized how selfish I was.

You are just a boy but, you know, EEEEEEEEWW!

What would you do if you suddenly find out that your boyfriend is watching porn videos before meeting you??

still trying to put me down? Haha, i'm having fun watching you trying. GET REAL AND STOP ACTING LIKE A BITCH.

Once admired now they have all have lost respect

 

It'll be soon enough, have no fear my friend.

I hate everything about my life.

 

I hate how I hardly have any friends, the friends I have aren't the type of friends I want them to be, emetophobia is ruining my life, my parents favour my sister over me so much that it's disgusting, my sister is supposed to be my best friend but she can be extremely stupid, I've never had a boyfriend or even anyone who has shown much of an interest, I hate my university, I hate that I've never had the experiences that I wish I could have had in high school, I hate the way I look, I hate that I used to get top marks but now I'm slipping, I hate when I'm not the best at something, I hate that time is running out.

 

And most of all I hate the one thing that I can never post or say out loud. Because if I do, it will be real and I don't think I can deal with that. When it becomes real everything will change, and then life as I know it will be over. And everything will get worse than it already is.

I hate everything about my life.

 

I hate how I hardly have any friends, the friends I have aren't the type of friends I want them to be, emetophobia is ruining my life, my parents favour my sister over me so much that it's disgusting, my sister is supposed to be my best friend but she can be extremely stupid, I've never had a boyfriend or even anyone who has shown much of an interest, I hate my university, I hate that I've never had the experiences that I wish I could have had in high school, I hate the way I look, I hate that I used to get top marks but now I'm slipping, I hate when I'm not the best at something, I hate that time is running out.

 

And most of all I hate the one thing that I can never post or say out loud. Because if I do, it will be real and I don't think I can deal with that. When it becomes real everything will change, and then life as I know it will be over. And everything will get worse than it already is.

Hey pal, that doesn't sound good. It's not much to say, but what will define you as a person is your strength in adversity. Unfortunately only you can change your situation, but if you come out the other side smelling of roses you know it's all your own doing. That said, if you ever need an ear of a random stranger feel free.

 

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I wish I could tell you that I like you, and find out whether all of your banter & attention is connected to anything.

 

I wish you'd stop hating me for being the best meaning bloke you will be with for a long time and having the nerve to get pissed at you for slapping me with my own goodwill. Fuck you.

It sounds stupid, but I feel damaged from moving so much as a kid.

 

I can't remember much of the past. I don't feel like I belong anywhere. I can't get close to anyone for too long. I get this horrible urge to run away. I quickly become bored with where I am and how things are if they don't change...I'm afraid I'll never be able to settle and my kids will end up like this.

 

I feel like a left-over piece from a puzzle.

 

I don't think I should ever unpack.

I hate everything about my life.

 

I hate how I hardly have any friends, the friends I have aren't the type of friends I want them to be, emetophobia is ruining my life, my parents favour my sister over me so much that it's disgusting, my sister is supposed to be my best friend but she can be extremely stupid, I've never had a boyfriend or even anyone who has shown much of an interest, I hate my university, I hate that I've never had the experiences that I wish I could have had in high school, I hate the way I look, I hate that I used to get top marks but now I'm slipping, I hate when I'm not the best at something, I hate that time is running out.

 

And most of all I hate the one thing that I can never post or say out loud. Because if I do, it will be real and I don't think I can deal with that. When it becomes real everything will change, and then life as I know it will be over. And everything will get worse than it already is.

I agree with Ronnabe. Only you can change your situation, cause only you know how's it like and what you wish for. And I know perfectly what you're talking about, cause I'm there too. Maybe not really on the same situation but it's almost like... not gonna talk about it, doesn't really matter here. The best you can do is live your life the best way you can and take everything life gives you as a bless... try to take the best from everything around you, even if you don't live the way you wished to. Think that you cannot think a lot on your personal problems, or it gets worse and worse. My mother says sadness creates more sadness, and she's right. Put a fuckin smile upon your face :) Think of solutions, and never of problems. Turn back to everything that puts you sad and tell yourself everyday you're stronger and smarter than you think. Think that, for instance, the fact that you didn't experience certain stuff at highschool can be good for yourself, so you haven't done the mess most teens do when they "experience", just because it was cool. Think that at least you have been yourself till now.

And more important, think that "after the storm always comes the sun". It's always good to think that you'll be "rewarded" one day, i mean, live the life you ever wanted. If you really want it, then you'll do it. By now, live each day as it was your last because one day you will remember this as something good.

 

I hope I helped, i'm not usually good at this :confused: