It sucks though, that one person can have this much of a hold on you.

but I lost a lot of love in it last summer. A girl from back in Ireland, She was the greatest, and it may be unfair, but I compare other girls with her, which is so, so unfair, but I cant help it. Maybe if I didnt know her then I'd see my friend as more then a friend, but I just dont. Shes not going to be as fantastic in every way.

 

 

gaaaaaaahhhh... stop it reileoooooo...

i know what ure going through... i know EXACTELY what ure going through...

:cry:

I know! It hurts to even be reminded of it. Its why Ive kicked that presence out of my life, because loving someone too much can be damn unhealthy.

 

Im gonna make a thread about it. Sorry!

I didnt really want her attention, I mean I was with her for most of the night anyway, I was fine when she was with other girls. But any time she talked to a guy, even if I knew he wouldnt have a chance, I always just kindof kept imagining what I'd do if they suddenly started kissing, and thinking of it right now again, I'd be outraged. Again, I have no idea why.

 

I dont want to go out with her, Im sure of this. If she never saw another guy again in her life, I wouldnt develop these feelings of jealousy and wondering if I like her. Thats how horrible I am.

 

That’s weird... is what you feel a feeling of possession, perhaps? Even if it were that, it’d be really strange as well, ‘cause you didn’t feel that before – I’m sure there was a time which you were able to see her as a friend in spite of her beauty - Which was the point that created the difference of your behaviour respect her, the day that you kissed her? So... was that kiss that important?

 

I just dont see her in the girlfriend kinda bracket

 

why not?! you say you neither see her as your next girlfriend nor as a normal friend of yours. so, what kind of relationship do you wanna have with her?

I dont know! I really dont.

 

She seems to be going out with another guy tonight anyway, so shes moved along, and for some reason I dont feel as jealous. I dont think so anyway.

 

It looks like shes going to sort this out for us...

Yes, which means FORGET ABOUT IT.

She has made the choice for you.

Yeah. Its so final.

 

great

i think i get what you mean...

 

hope everything gets better soon :(

ohh... what a pity. Maybe it would had been better that YOU'd have made the choice.

honey dip reilly... this stuff only happens to YOU!!

hahahahahahahahahahahaha

Sucks, a whole thread and NOTHING has come of it :(

Hahaha, you have no idea what happened last night and Im not sure if I should share. Mariana knows because she was on MSN at the time (Well sortof, before it happened) and Im not sure if I should share!

 

Maybe I shouldnt have said anything.

 

Well I had a big exam this morning (It went brilliantly mariana by the way!) and I was doing an all night study session with a girl (Shutup, it really was intended as studying) and my friend, the stupid biznitch, gets drunk on her night out with that guy (And it turns out she was in a group with him, not out with him) and shows up at my room, in the hall. I had to drag her down the hall to her room, as she laughed, and I dumped her in her bedroom, and came back to mine.

 

Then 5 minutes later, me and study girl are studying again, and my friend just walks in, collapses in the chair, and says "Whos this bitch?" before chuckling and falling asleep.

 

Idiot. Can you imagine the embarassment?

 

It didnt look good, thats for sure, but still.

 

I havent seen her today, but I'm so pissed off, I hope I dont see her until I calm down about it.

 

Its kind of her humour though, she never swears unless shes drunk, and then everyone becomes bitches and fuckers, hahaha its usually very funny, except when she does it to strangers, like my study pal.

 

Arent you wishing nothing really did come of it? Because it just keeps going on, and it probably will until the end of term (30 more days of this shit?!?)

oh hun... im sorry all this shit happened!!!

id be pissed at her too!!

(maybe u shouldve let her on the hallway as your original plan!!)

:laugh4:

 

im still sorry for poor study girl... she seemed so nice on our 5 minute talk on msn!!

:laugh4:

 

oh... good to know u went really well!! :nice:

She is so nice! I went to Pizza Hut with her today, and shes really fun. And yowza, really hot.

 

Anyway I saw my friend tonight, and was angry at first, about to bring it up, but she didnt remember anything from last night. In fact she was totallly comfortable and didnt realise she had done nothing wrong.

 

Maybe this is a suspicious act, but I didnt tell her. I didnt want her knowing there was a girl in my room (She wouldnt believe we were actually studying), and she couldnt even remember it (And hopefully never does).

 

So I just acted, not angry.

so... was it really just studying honey dip reilleo?? :wink3:

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

i seriously need to stop with the honey thing... :uhoh:

Hahaha! No, there was definately no honey dipping :P

 

But I dont know, maybe there will be sometime :shocked2:

omy... see, me and my ideas!!!

 

well, was study girl upset by crazeh drunk girl or did she take it ok being called a bitch by a random drunk girl?

(wow, that sounded awfully mean, even for my standards!!) :stunned:

I just told her my friend was out of her mind, and would've called anyone a bitch, so not to take it personally. She's ok with it but she did say she wouldnt mind an apology if they ever met! Yikes, gotta keep em apart.

hahahahahahahahaha...

not interested in a catfight?? :wink3:

 

:laugh4:

Hmmmm... :wink3:

 

Only if I have control of a hose!

 

Ummm I mean water hose :uhoh:

LMAO!!!

 

a water whose... yeah, right... :wink3:

 

 

grrrrrrrrrr... why doesnt time pass!! i want to go home and reeeeeeest :bigcry:

 

so, u went well on your sociology exam?

Yes I did! I pretty much included everything in my two thesis' (Is that a word). Whats awful is that I only started revising for this whole module, yesterday, Karma oughta strike me.

 

Are you at work?

yeah... still 40 mins to go...

but im getting sick, my throat hurts like hell!!

:bigcry:

Awww! Get a cough drop.

 

Maybe your friend gave you a kissy disease :wink3:

my friend??

ooooh, yeah, my friend... had forgotten about him already!! (god im mean today!!) :laugh4:

 

oh well, i dont think so... the weather has been crazy and theres this virus spreading around...