hahahahahahahaha...

errrrrmmm... maybe i should... but everyone knows he has a crush on me, so i just have to stop giving him any kind of hope (like kissing him everytime we go out and i get drunk...)!

Ahhh the poor guy! You tease!

 

Really, stop doing this to him! I was in his situation once, and it hurts like hell.

yeah... im staying away from him for a bit...

as i told u, it has happened before... he just has to remember that im not into him... coz he does know that!!

he knows me too well (considering we know each other since we were 7), but sometimes he forgets how i am...

Well y'know, people change, girls opinions change, and he probably thinks that your's is changing, when its not.

 

I think you should talk to him, tell him you like him as just a friend. Because seriously, its crushing to be there, when I thought a friend was more then a friend, and I liked her, I found out that she wasnt into me, and it was so horrible. I felt worthless, in a way its worse then losing love because, at least you feel that you were valued at some point when you had love, with a situation like this, you just feel shit. I know.

ill think about that... thanks hun!!

:kiss:

 

g2g now...

I went out last night and I'm still very drunk. I drank COPIOUS amounts of alcahol. I've talked to several people and they all have stories about what I did when I came home, hahaha, which includes throwing eggs from my buildings top floor and hitting this bitch's window (She keeps calling security when we play football).

 

Anyway, luckily I didnt see my friend (Of which this topic was created about) because I probably would've tried to kiss her, ah god. I know I would have.

 

Nah bon I dont think she likes me, just as a friend, maybe she gets a little confused when shes drunk, we all do, but I dont think so.

 

Did you ask her if she likes you? I mean flat out ask?

PS. Hellooo long time no speak Reillymeister. Or Pingu, whatever you're called these days.

You can call me whatever you want baby!

 

Yeah I havent seen you around charlay.

 

No Ive never asked her, I dont think so anyway...

Can I call you Pocoyo? I mean, he is soooooooo cool after all.

 

You should refrain from being drunk around her then :P

 

I am making progress I think, I haven't been thinking about this guy much, but I just KNOW when I see him I will be thrown once again :(

Shes my drinking buddy! How am I supposed to not drink around her? We're going out tonight, and both of us want to get mega pissed.

 

I dont know if I mentioned this before but last night I had COPIOUS amounts of alcahol and it was yeah, real good.

 

Anyway, if you arent going to see the guy much, try not to think of him. I really think its a situation that is kinda destined to never set off, but I hope it does someday

Well if you can handle just being mates without the awkward-ness, that's cooool.

 

I only see this guy when I go to work back home, we used to keep in contact all the time while I was at uni, but obviously not anymore. I am just going to leave it for now, and have fun getting pissed at uni after exams!

Yeah, take a break from it for a bit. Theres always summer y'know, so dont get stressed about it.

 

Last night we got majorly drunk, like I said we would. I was so jealous everytime she even talked to another guy, I really was boiling with rage, and I have no idea why. One of my friends was trying to kiss her after the party, and they were sitting like, right beside me, and I was just dieing, I had to leave and go to bed.

 

Why the hell was I like that? I'm confused, oh so confused.

Argh! Yes, I am JUST like that, I hate any other marginally attractive girl talking to this guy!

 

You were jealous my dear, either you still like her or you're just being silly :P

Really jealous! I felt ill, I couldnt stand to watch it.

 

So you know what it feels like then! Its painful.

 

Any time I was with another girl, she did look over at me quite a bit, but she wasnt boiling-rage-of-fury like I was.

 

I dont think I like her, but obviously there must be something there. Its so silly, we used to set eachother up with other people, I used to pretend to be her gay friend! (Which nobody seemed to believe, which is quite insulting) And now, I cant bare to see her with another guy, yet, I dont want her to be with me.

 

Definate confusion.

I was so jealous everytime she even talked to another guy' date=' I really was boiling with rage[/quote']

 

as you said, I think you should think about the real reasons which you felt like that. In my opinion, it was 'cause you wanted to be one of those boys who were talking to her, 'cause you wanted that she payed the attention to you.

Anyway, I have a question: you say you felt jealous...... but from who? from all the boys that she talked to?

 

I dont think I like her' date=' but obviously there must be something there[/quote']

 

are you sure that you don't like her? think about it: if you see her only as a FRIEND, you shouldn't care at all if she's talking to other boys... so of course you must feel something for her and not only a friendship. Maybe it's still soon for knowing what it's, but sooner or later your confusion should dissapear... maybe you're beginning to love her although you don't want to.

Really jealous! I felt ill, I couldnt stand to watch it.

 

So you know what it feels like then! Its painful.

 

Any time I was with another girl, she did look over at me quite a bit, but she wasnt boiling-rage-of-fury like I was.

 

I dont think I like her, but obviously there must be something there. Its so silly, we used to set eachother up with other people, I used to pretend to be her gay friend! (Which nobody seemed to believe, which is quite insulting) And now, I cant bare to see her with another guy, yet, I dont want her to be with me.

 

Definate confusion.

 

How do you know she wasn't a boiling-rage-of-fury though? When I think about this guy being with another girl it hurts me, it's more that jealousy. If you don't wanna be with her but you don't like her chatting to other guys I think you probably don't like her in that way really. Then again you do sound confused...

Reilleoooo

it seems u do like this girl, but u just dont want to admit it to yourself...

that "boiling-rage-of-fury" jealousy only happens when u reeeeally like someone, the friends type of jealousy is waaay milder...

I kissed a friend

Ching-ching cha linga ling

It was ok

Chinga ling

But she was a friend

Chinga ling

And now we're at an ends

Ching-ching cha linga ling

 

A song for you all.

 

So I kissed my friend tonight, only for a minute, and now I dont know where I stand with her, and vice versa.

 

The taxi ride was awkward enough, I cant imagine tomorow...

 

Well you're just going to have to have sex with her now.

^^ LMAO

:laugh4::laugh4::laugh4:

 

oh dear... i think i need to read that msn convo again!!!

Reilleoooo

it seems u do like this girl, but u just dont want to admit it to yourself...

that "boiling-rage-of-fury" jealousy only happens when u reeeeally like someone, the friends type of jealousy is waaay milder...

 

Yeah that's what I was thinking tooo :nice:

as you said, I think you should think about the real reasons which you felt like that. In my opinion, it was 'cause you wanted to be one of those boys who were talking to her, 'cause you wanted that she payed the attention to you.

Anyway, I have a question: you say you felt jealous...... but from who? from all the boys that she talked to?

 

Thanks for the post.

 

I didnt really want her attention, I mean I was with her for most of the night anyway, I was fine when she was with other girls. But any time she talked to a guy, even if I knew he wouldnt have a chance, I always just kindof kept imagining what I'd do if they suddenly started kissing, and thinking of it right now again, I'd be outraged. Again, I have no idea why.

 

I dont want to go out with her, Im sure of this. If she never saw another guy again in her life, I wouldnt develop these feelings of jealousy and wondering if I like her. Thats how horrible I am.

 

are you sure that you don't like her? think about it: if you see her only as a FRIEND, you shouldn't care at all if she's talking to other boys... so of course you must feel something for her and not only a friendship. Maybe it's still soon for knowing what it's, but sooner or later your confusion should dissapear... maybe you're beginning to love her although you don't want to.

 

I feel something besides friendship, she is attractive (Especially last night oh jeesus! That should be illegal) and really cool, interesting and funny, but I just dont see her in the girlfriend kinda bracket

 

Charl and Mariana, the more I think about it I realise that maybe its because I dont have a lot going in my life right now. I dont mean that in a self-deprecating way, I do have a life, but I lost a lot of love in it last summer. A girl from back in Ireland, She was the greatest, and it may be unfair, but I compare other girls with her, which is so, so unfair, but I cant help it. Maybe if I didnt know her then I'd see my friend as more then a friend, but I just dont. Shes not going to be as fantastic in every way.

 

Jeese, this post sums up a horrible side of me.

^^ LMAO

:laugh4::laugh4::laugh4:

 

oh dear... i think i need to read that msn convo again!!!

 

Hahahahaha! I dont think I have that on this comp, funny shit.

 

Well you're just going to have to have sex with her now.

 

Hahahahaha!

Hey I understand, you meet one person who's just everything you want and everyone else pales in comparison, you don't feel like that on purpose, it's just the way things are.

Yeah, thats what it is. Its just a great connection, and my friend just wont be as exciting.

Well you only deserve the best, don't settle for anything less :kiss:

Thanks Charl! :nice: