Brent Posted December 26, 2011 Share Posted December 26, 2011 Okay so the jig is up. I have to figure out what I'm doing with my life. While a lot of high school kids complain about this when they're going to college, it's way worse for me, because I'm graduating college. I have to do real stuff soon. It's the worst. I told myself I would decide what to do over Christmas break, but I don't even know how to start! :bigcry: Can you help me plzzz? I am graduating in May with a bachelor in Biology and a master's in Chemistry. I hate chemistry with all my heart and I will soon be able to dance upon its grave and pee freely upon its tombstone. I applied to a few med schools, but the more I think about it, the less I want to do that. It's interesting and all but once I get into it I can't really turn back. I'll be in an MD/PhD program because I am poor and can't afford to pay for a regular MD program. My parents didn't go to school and they're in a lot of debt so money has always been really tight. Anyway, my other options are to work in a lab or go to graduate school to get a master's or PhD. But I'm seriously confused. Plus, I haven't really gotten to another point: I don't know if I'm actually smart enough for medical school, and if I do it, I really want to be successful. The problem with it is that (whether she wants to admit it or not) my mom is deteriorating in health pretty quickly. She is diabetic and her alzheimer's is kicking in so she will lose her job I'm sure within the next ten years or so. My dad sure as hell won't be able to pitch in enough to keep the house, pay all the bills, and get into retirement without my (and my brother's) help. Plus, he was diagnosed with a treatable cancer this year, which is another ridiculously complicated expense as it is. But my brother didn't go to school and has a hard time paying for things as it is. I just want to find a good balance between my family life, my academic life and my work life. So I have this annoying weight on my shoulders that I have to carry no matter where I go. I don't want to sound whiny, because everyone has problems, but that's the way it is. To be honest, I never really wanted to get into all this science crap. I have always wanted to write. But after I saw the way the economy was going, and the hole of debt that my family has gotten themselves into, I knew I had to have something marketable, so I switched to this :| And now I'm at this crossroads. Gimme some advice plz k ugggh. I don't want to pick the wrong thing. I feel like I'm being funneled into something I don't want to do, but I'm beginning to think it would be best for my family and my lifestyle to just roll with the punches. Thanks for listening to me bitch. Coldplayers are the best. :) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Create an account or sign in to comment
You need to be a member in order to leave a comment
Create an account
Sign up for a new account in our community. It's easy!Register a new account
Already have an account? Sign in here.Sign In Now