I don't know what that means :(

How spooky, this song has just come up

 

[ame=http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DedaEVIbTkY]Living On my Own (1985) - Freddie Mercury - YouTube[/ame]

I don't know what that means :(

 

I was doing some overtime, and the place was dead, so I made use of the pool table to have some practise.

I've played a lot of pool alone, I've got a table (Not a kids table or anything but on the smaller size, like a conventional pub table, and it does have a few rolls on it unfortunately) and sometimes play in competitions so I can be on it for hours an evening. It's really fucking frustrating.

I'm something like an introverted extrovert. I love being with other people, can't stand being alone. Loneliness kills me. But I'm also quite shy and I don't talk a lot so people see me as an introvert. :whaaat:

I'm something like an introverted extrovert. I love being with other people, can't stand being alone. Loneliness kills me. But I'm also quite shy and I don't talk a lot so people see me as an introvert. :whaaat:

Maybe you're just socially awkward.

Maybe you're just socially awkward.

 

Possibly.

^I'm the same as you.

THIS. I'm the poster child of introversion. I often feel the need to be alone. It's not like I can't be around people; I can. I just don't function nearly as well while they're around, depending on who the people are and how many of them there are. Sometimes being around a lot of people makes me feel quite uncomfortable, especially if I don't know them on a certain level. I'm a person who can't really open up to people until after I get to know them and see that they don't mind me in the way that I think they might. While I haven't been diagnosed by a professional, I'm pretty sure I have an anxiety disorder of some sort. Dealing with people can be difficult for me sometimes. It's why I appreciate things like the Internet: I can talk to people about things while not really having to face them and be afraid of what they're going to think of me.

 

Woah, i could've written that post myself! :stunned:

I'm something like an introverted extrovert. I love being with other people, can't stand being alone. Loneliness kills me. But I'm also quite shy and I don't talk a lot so people see me as an introvert. :whaaat:

 

Being shy and quiet doesn't make you an introvert. It makes you shy and quiet. People tend to think those qualities make people introverts, but it's not true. Neither do introverts have to be shy and quiet. I actually tend to be a very loud person, especially around people who I hold dear. (This is particularly true when I spend time with my best friend. Hahahaha.)

I don't really know because in some social situations I can be both extremes. But i'm usually very very VERY shy when I first meet people but then when I get comfortable with them I'm very loud and people know me for always talking or saying something stupid but I always find it so odd that I start being extremely timid to the point where I feel dizzy when speaking to people and making small talk. Although i know that talking to stangers is the only way to make friends and I would have never met my best friends.

But back to the topic of solidarity/solitude, to be honest i'd rather be alone because then i can do whatever I want, watch whatever I want, listen to whatever music pleases me and not deal with someone else and having to talk with them about something. That's not the case for every friend I have but I'd consider myself my own best friend.

But back to the topic of solidarity, to be honest i'd rather be alone because then i can do whatever I want, watch whatever I want, listen to whatever music pleases me and not deal with someone else and having to talk with them about something.

I like this very much.

I don't really know because in some social situations I can be both extremes. But i'm usually very very VERY shy when I first meet people but then when I get comfortable with them I'm very loud and people know me for always talking or saying something stupid but I always find it so odd that I start being extremely timid to the point where I feel dizzy when speaking to people and making small talk. Although i know that talking to stangers is the only way to make friends and I would have never met my best friends.

But back to the topic of solidarity/solitude, to be honest i'd rather be alone because then i can do whatever I want, watch whatever I want, listen to whatever music pleases me and not deal with someone else and having to talk with them about something. That's not the case for every friend I have but I'd consider myself my own best friend.

ABOUT ME. Fuck no matter we get along so well, we're like the same person.

 

I'm not REALLY afraid of meeting new people anymore, but I still find myself having a much different personality when I first meet people. Unless a person looks very selfless and welcoming at a first glance, I always assume the worst of them, not that they're bad people but that they wouldn't want to talk to me, I'm not good enough for them, etc.

So when I meet people IRL I'm horribly quiet and shy! When I get warmed up to people which really can take more than a year, I'm outrageously loud and hyper.

And that's really how I want to be, who I really am, but I can't bring myself to just be like that with everyone. It doesn't feel right.

 

I found that in my summer camp I go to for gifted students, I warm up much faster as it's the only place in the world where I feel like I belong, but I still at first think everyone dislikes me, every single year I go and I only fully warm up in a few weeks, by the time we have to leave anyway. Oh well.

 

I'm not sure if I prefer solidarity though, tbh this might sound pathetic but I haven't gone out with friends since junior high (I just finished my second year of high school), the past year a lot of people asked me to hang out with them but I just found excuses to stay at home in my room and listen to music. I prefer to take the images of musicians, actors, book characters etc. and imagine being friends with them, as they're always to me someone who really understands me, we share the same soul, I don't have to pretend to be anyone for us to get along well. I've never found this to be odd or anything because it works for me and brings me happiness. But it would be cool if there was a real person out there to fill that role.

 

This year, I want to hang out with everyone though! And spend a lot more time around people because I want to show people that I'm not just criminally quiet and uninterested-looking, I'm very loud and full of energy! And maybe if I do that I will look happy and positive and bring a lot of cool people towards me.

I would like to make a difference between feeling alone and being alone

 

Now, for me it's 50% and 50%.

 

I love being with people, I love chatting about music, books, tv shows, everything, from the most stupid fact to some serious topic.

I am lucky enough to have a lot of friends who understand me so I'm always feeling comfortable.

I'm empathic so when I meet some stranger for the first time I'm always the first of the two to speak, so I can make the other more comfortable with me, so I can feel if we are compatible or not as friends and take the conversation on a further level, I can do all of this above with the first 10 minutes of conversation. I'm quite proud of this :smug2:

 

But I also love to be alone and at the same time I hate feeling alone.

I love staying on my own, even for a week or two, just do whatever I want in my pajamas and with dirty hair, I don't care.

I can stay in totally peace with myself, I can draw, I can dance, I can listen to the music I want as long as I want to. And I'm more than happy with that, because I know, deep inside in my heart, that even if now, in this very room, I'm alone, I will never be alone (goddamnit this is confusing I hope you get my point), I have friends that understand my habit of staying away from them for weeks, so I know I can rely on them because they will be there for me.

 

On the other hand, feeling alone for me is the worst thing ever, I used to suffer from depression three years ago, when I feel that that dark time returns to me, breaking all I built in the last three years, I don't know why it happens to me.

I think I am a little bit bipolar, in the same day I can feel perfectly fine being alone but that same day could end with me crying to sleep.

 

That's why for me it's important making a difference between feeling alone and being alone.

I'm something like an introverted extrovert. I love being with other people, can't stand being alone. Loneliness kills me. But I'm also quite shy and I don't talk a lot so people see me as an introvert. :whaaat:

 

I'm the same. I like being around my friends but I'm really shy when I meet new people.

Interesting topic

 

I'm not sure which of introvert or extrovert applies more to me.

 

On the introvert side I am very shy and hate talking to new people (I think my brain sees all unacquainted people as 'strange' and flips a bit). Going out for several weekends in a row being surrounded by friends can take it's toll and leave me stressed. I like to have a fair bit of time to recover and take care of myself. With people I don't know, I don't see the point of chit-chat and keep what I say in conversations limited to anything I think is worthwhile or important to say.

 

On the other hand with the extrovert side, I can be very talkative to friends and on occasion rather opinionated. I can't spend too much time alone or my depression tends to crop up and kick me in the ass, leaving me feeling like nobody cares or something. I enjoy being in the company of people I trust and do put a great deal of importance on having these people around to support me, I guess I'm a rather typical type that likes the validation of peers.

 

With school being so heavy with the homework load I'm needing lots of time to myself to actually do the work, but I crave the company of friends again.

In a more general sense I think I would want more extrovert qualities, I can still be quite timid and shy about my opinions in real life even around close friends because I'm wary of how they will react and don't want to really impinge on people. That requires a bit more courage than I currently have effort for though ._.

I prefer to take the images of musicians, actors, book characters etc. and imagine being friends with them, as they're always to me someone who really understands me, we share the same soul, I don't have to pretend to be anyone for us to get along well. I've never found this to be odd or anything because it works for me and brings me happiness. But it would be cool if there was a real person out there to fill that role.

 

I actually really relate to this.

You can never truly know somebody like that though. It's too easy to idolise them.

You can never truly know somebody like that though. It's too easy to idolise them.

I'm well aware that when I'm doing that I'm just romanticizing an image of someone I don't really know, yeah. I don't actually take these ideas seriously, to the point that if I met these people IRL I would over-react etc.

 

It's just something I do that allows me to be in solitude without being lonely.

dee is a stinky fart

 

but thats so weird and i think a lot of people relate to feeling like your friends with people you admire. because thats what it is, admiration not idolizing and people will usually think otherwise.

i remember in my other high school i was so freaking shy like it was unreal but i remembered that this one class we had to say something infront of the class as a fun activity and everyone chanted my name and told the teacher i should go infront because im funny and idk why i dont take that to boost my self esteem???? idk

 

i joined an improv class tho and they're all losers but idc i wanna make friends and not feel like i have to be """"""cool""""

You can never truly know somebody like that though. It's too easy to idolise them.

 

Well, yeah. I'm not suggesting I actually know any of these people on an intimate level. I'm certainly not speaking for Dee when I say this, but for me, I use this as an escape more than anything. It's hard to explain.

 

It's just something I do that allows me to be in solitude without being lonely.

 

Yeah, precisely.